Thursday, June 29, 2006

My hands are aching so much that i barely even have the strength to do the simplest thing.
Today we had our first weights training. It's almost half killing my hands!! HAhaa..
Plus what ms lee called chest building. HAHa... supposed to EXPAND your chest. =Gosh.... it was super funny lah.

Anyway, i can barely even type properly now... my hands feel as if they are super heavy to lift up!! Biceps and triceps hurting so much.
I'm having a busy day today!
First it was school, then training and now i've gotta go for our project meeting.
Busy busy!

I can't wait for the weekends where i can relax and skate!
And class party @ ECP on monday!
Slalom time! BBQ time! time to get fatter! *though it seems like i can never get fat=
School is off to a good start, can see that a lot of people are really working hard for this term.
I believe i can do well in my studies with all the effort put in this term! Let's hope i don't end up disappointing myself =)

Monday, June 26, 2006

I am so envious....
I was relaxing my mind looking out of my balcony with the soft breeze blowing in my face.
I could see the houses nearby from on top.
There was this particular corner terrace that caught my attention.
There was a checkers table at their long front porch, 2 sisters, prolly about 15-18 years old were playing with each other.
Their little brother was riding his bike at the porch.
Not long, their dad came home...
The maid opened the gate and he drove in... Out came 1 little girl, 2 little boys from the Lexus ES300 that he was driving; and they ran into the house joyfully after a day at school.
The girls and little brother called out "pa pa!" together...
He walked around his front porch, oh, i forgot to mention that there was a little pond at the side too.
So he went to feed his fishes...
Then moved on to seeing his girls play their checkers...
Before walking into the house for a hot shower and settle for dinner as a family...

An everyday routine i once used to have more than 4 years ago....no longer exist.......

Sunday, June 25, 2006

Tommorrow, i will be embarking on a new journey to working hard and do well for term 3.
All the best to myself and to every other who wishes to excel in their studies =)
I'm so shagged! My muscles are half-dead already.
They are aching like there's REALLY no tomorrow. I've strained too much on them! Poor things! Being tortured by their master.
Muahaha.
Let's not make it sound that bad, it's just the leg muscles.
But i really feel as if my legs are gonna collapse any moment.
It cannot be compared to netball.
Skating is even more hiong leh! xD
I feel the fatigue after a netball training. However, i've never felt this ache when i skate.
Probably skated too much and strained my muscles too much.

I have improved on my Slalom moves. But not so much of that.
Feel as if i've just went through a real physical training more than improving.
Hahaha.
Not that bad. Tried sitting moves. Can't execute any yet. Hehehe...


The way i thrash my own body is like nobody's business. HAIZ!!!
Can fall until my hand swollen. Chiong transit to a half powerslide, lost balance, slammed down on my left side; which caused my thighs and left wrist to kena the whole impact.
Haiyo!
Whole body pain here pain there. Like old woman liao le!!

I should consider getting some wrist guards. Maybe not so soon.
My right palm is freaking swollen and damn pain because of all the impacts that it takes when i fall.
I fall until i'm numbed to falling already...
Average people's reactions would be yelling and screaming in pain when they fall(on skates) as if it's the end of their life or they broke their entire leg off like that.
Haiyo. If i hear a guy screaming or yelling like that, what a turn off sia! Gay man!
Imagine that. Oh geeez!

Oh oH! Guess what!?
I kenna poked by a fork!!
yes, i know it's dumb. My mom used a fork to poke me cause i was irritating her like siao then she play play come poke.
Now my left wrist got 3 holes, skin came off, a super tiny little wound. CHILD ABUSE AH!!! HAHAHAH.

I am totally numb and "ignorance" of his existence.
I really wonder why sometimes even a child can think in a much mature way than an adult who's been through much more experiences.
I can't even bother to think about why he is like that!
He's already dead in my world; my life.
And very sadly, that's one of the 3 things that we can't change in life. Your parents, life, death.
Although i would love to change but it's impossible.
And i can't revert the situation because the problem doesn't lie with me.
It lies in within himself. And another thing for me to feel sad for is that he doesn't realise that.
I guess i still have about a 1% concern for him since i'm still bloggin about him. But oh well, just to vent my fustrations since it's difficult to be understandable unless you've been through it yourself.

I'm half excited half dreading to go back school. Dreading about the part where i gotta go through the same old routine every morning. Haiz...
Can there be a change? How can i spice up my morning life?
Maybe blast some technos when i wake up xD
Not a bad idea indeed. And what do i get later on? People in the house saying that i'm mad and crazy. WAHAHHA! =P

Saturday, June 24, 2006

I am currently very very irritated by a PEST.
This PEST keeps flying round and round me. Why can't the PEST just shoo?!
WTF. I am super pissed off and annoyed! I have a strong urge to slap this PEST. It's a psychological problem, don't IT needs counselling? 为什么勉强到这个地步! I am showing it damn clearly what i feel.
Do i really have to do to that extend where i will go by the hard way already...

Aye Aye! 美女烦恼男人,丑女烦恼读书。 Haha. Make sense lor. xD

Today went skating! Last time to skate during the weekdays. My ankles don't feel all that good today. My muscles are feeling wierd too! Eh?! haha!
School's starting again!
I have to really work hard and pia for the rest of the term already!
I have to have more self-discipline. Whenever i have this strong determination to study, i end up getting distracted and losing my focus. Hmmm.. i should be more focused and strong-willed about such things in future.
My mom is opening up her options to continue her studies and further it to getting an MBA cert because her company wants and feels she has the potential to be promoted.
I strongly encourage her to go for it.
Hehe.
Saying that you've not studied for years is just an excuse :) Every thing does not come easy my dear. Of course you have to sacrifice to achieve something yeah?
Just go for it and enjoy the satisfaction after that. Ah, the feeling's great. It's always great to earn things with your own efforts.
Let me recall. When was the last time i worked so hard just to achieve something i really want?

Prolly just recently during this year. The first term when i just started schooling again. I have never studied that hard in my life before. Seriously.
I worked towards ace-ing my subjects. Realised i'm a person with very high hopes. However, one bad thing to that is that i get too disappointed if i had worked so hard for it and i didn't achieve what i wanted.
One good example was PSLE. I aimed so high. Pinned my hopes to get above 260. End up getting 240+
My heart dropped when i collected my results. So i kinda learnt that i shouldn't aim so high. But it's in my blood. HEHE xD However, am trying to improve by aiming high, BUT making smaller goals along the way to achieve it step by step :)

I really don't wish to look back in my schooling years and regret that i've not studied because of reasons that aren't even called reasons; more of excuses.
Big dreams, big goals.
That's what we need in our life.
Depend on ourselves and no one else.

Talking about this. I recall reading "The Purpose Driven Life" or something like that. Can't really remember. How it talked about how different people are driven by different factors.
I think i'm more of a practical person; being the Virgo; Earth sign i guess. More logical and practical.
I'm driven by passion and money.
Ah, that's where its different from being greedy about money.
Passion is a whole different thing! i will of course choose a job which i have passion in and not drag the rest of my life doing something i dislike.
Use my passion and earn my own big bucks. Ah, what a great sense of fulfilment!

Hehe, i realised something about myself. I love to recollect all my memories and do my own self-reflection; constantly changing as a whole.
Quite not bad for an age like mine. But of course, i will always aim to be a better person and never stop that life-long goal.

Nothing in this world is worth to not treasure yourself. It's all in the mind.
Be strong and not let it be swayed with other emotions of others.
Self reminder eh. Ha!
Chill chill. I feel much better after typing this =)
Good night my lovely readers!

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

It's been a really busy week for me.
I've hardly gotten any rest and my brain is pumping really hard. I need a break. People please spare me and give me a break.
I'm losing my focus during tuition. Losing the energy to work for anything.
I just feel like whacking the drums all day long... vent all my fustrations. My head is throbbing so hard like it can't take the pressure anymore.

I was asking myself. What do people really need? And what's the difference between people's needs and wants.
Needs - A Home? Love? Friends?
Wants - Materials?
It's supposedly that way. But life's isn't fair all the time.
When people have what they NEED, they will take for granted and greediness gets the better of them, till their desires for "wants" becomes "needs".
So what do i really need? And what do i want? Can they be concluded to be the same category? That if i lack any of them, i'm not complete?
A very difficult question to answer. Have we learnt to treasure? Treasure and be content with what we have?
Why are we so sheltered? Why am i so sheltered?
Okay, so we just have to accept the fact that most Singaporean kids are too sheltered nowadays that we take for granted with what we have.
Sometimes i feel very disappointed in the people around me and even more disappointed in myself that we have ended up like that.
Let's see, i've done quite a large amount of waking up and thinking about all my past and now.
I'm still changing and hoping to be a better person.
Sometimes it's not ourselves that we want to be that pampered but because of our surroundings and environment that we live in. We depend on others too much.
Talking about treasuring. If we learn to treasure the people around us, life would definitely be much better. It all goes one circle again, we take for granted and not learn to treasure until we lose that certain something then do we realise that we actually depended on it too much. And we regret for our whole life.
Have we really treasured what our parents have done for us? All the pain they went through to provide just for us. The best for us. The best to their limits. I think it's just a rare few group of people who have treasured. Either they have experienced the loss of a loved one or they have seen other cases closely linked to them. I think we should really start treasuring our parents for what they have done for us. Yes, and i'm emphasising that. Imagine if you were to buy all that toys and clothes and diapers when you were young. All that food they gave you. All the hard earned money that they had worked so hard for. Nothing we can do to ever repay them.
And yes, we have to treasure every single thing we have. Every little thing that we own is earned through much effort by our parents. Treasure the people around you... treasure yourself.

Sunday, June 18, 2006

A dream far away but a passion burning long.

WOOT!~
I figured out some moves and transitions to make and perform them smoothly! It was an inspiration sia!! I was at Bedok Jetty with some of the skaters. Coincidentally saw Shu Feng at Jetty too. Asked around for cones and Shu Feng happened to have also! HAHA! Must thank her lei xD Got a lot of energy while at Jetty. Started slaloming and trying out a lot of different stuffs. And i anyhow do do, EHHH!!!! SIA LA!!!! My own legs started doing their own moves. And i was down there STUNNED. I could transit my moves so easily!!! HEHEHE< this is called hidden talent lor~
And then one of the figure skater who was with Shu Feng said i can make it for figure skating lor!! xD Ya ya, i know i'm talented. ^^ But then i'm not that interested in figure skating. It's also one of the most difficult kind of skating.
I found out that there were pros and cons also lah! My balance and leaning on edges aren't that good at all! Need loads more of practice!

I think it's some psychological and environment problem. Sometimes i see certain things, i have NO mood, NO energy, NO rhythm to slalom. But sometimes i feel a sudden burst of energy and start doing crazy things and i will be stunned that i could suddenly do it so well. WIERD?! Hahaha.
Alright enough about skating.

I wanna learn drums! Learn electric/accoustic guitar!
And how i wished i had a set of my very own drums at home =D With a sound proof room as a jamming area sia! SO cool lor~
I feel i'm much more sensitive to music nowadays.
I hear the instruments used to play in the background of the music. The main instruments and all. And then i try it out on guitar, go back to Studio to practise on the drums! Last time it was a totally different case! I was so insensitive, i had no idea what the person was singing, no idea what the instruments used were, no idea of the beats of the song. xD

EH! For saying so much, you know what!
I think it's not really about talent or whatsoever.
But more of; If there's a will, there's a way. Which is also determination and passion!!
So anyone and everyone if you've been hesitating to do something you've really wanted to do, JUST GO DO IT! Live's short you know. In a matter of few years, before you know it, you're already too old/too busy to enjoy :)

Thursday, June 15, 2006

Yesterday we had our very own SGSkaters on ice!!
Early in the morning left house at 8.20 to begin the journey to the west! Reached Jurong East MRT at 9.22a.m. Li De(littlefoot) and me were the earliest! No one reached yet. =X
Then we had breakfast and went on to the stupid arcade to fetch the gaymagnet out from there.

AFter that, finally reached the ice skating rink! It was pretty cold at first, after skating for a while. Started getting hotter! Ben, Li De, Tianjun(gaymagnet), Sha and me were there. We took our very own Sgskaters' on ice group pics xD
Sha was the pervertic one!! He took the cam from Li De and kept taking girls' asses!!!! AWWWWW sheeesh, are you THAT despo?! There's one with the girl's ass in tights damn close up somemore lor! Wa lao!!

Not long we started sliding on the ice! It was cool scraping all the ice. And you are able to slide much longer than on inline. =D
It got pretty boring after going round and round the rink. And then i saw Jia Xin with her church friends. Went to kajiao her xD About her CRUSH LOL! And half the time while i was skating with her, she was there screaming away -.-'''

Left the place around 1-2. Not so sure. Then Ben left for home. While the rest decided to urban to tianjun's house to get cones to slalom cos no one had cones with them. The terrain from Jurong MRT to Yew Tee ROCKS LIKE HELL man!!
We went through cramp narrow pavements with twigs and leaves and drain covers! And then next was mud, water plus sand!! GOSH!!!
After the much enjoyable journey to Tianjun's house, we finalled reached! While on the way around his condo to the lift. we went down gentle sloping pavements. And WTF LOR!!!!!!! i T braked all the way then i saw jus one more curve i didnt brake anymre and went straight down. Next thing i knew, i did a very nice parrallel slide and fell on my side. FREAKING PAIN LOR!!!! Stupid sha was just saying that i confirm will fall one -.-'''''' and also never say slow down!!! WTF!!! xD
With additional injuries to my already injured knee, we continued the journey to his lift. In his lift, guess what? He stayed on the 20th floor. His bedroom was the lift xD LOL!
And guess what again, HE COULDNT FIND HIS CONES!!! So we went all the way to his house for nothing ---....---
AFter that, cleaned my skates and switched boots with Sha! His was a size smaller than mine. My original skates was too big for me. ANd now it's a size smaller, its much better! =DDD Thanks shashsaaaa!!

Dropped Sha at Yew Tee mrt, then went for dinner with Li De and Tianjun. After eating our food. We chatted for so long! time flies lor! Chatted for 1 half hour straight! xD

Until about 9.30 we left West and went on to journey to the East! LOL. Not really east la. North. xD Li De and i decided to drop off at Potong Pasir and skate all the way back to Serangoon. It was quite alright. Not xiong at all ba. ANd i left my slippers in Li De's bag!!! Argh =((
He skated with me all the way home xD
ANd i TRIED doing maths hw after that. It was useless. No energy at all xD HAHA...
What a tiring week lor. Didn't even get to sleep late!

Monday, June 12, 2006

Gay Magnet

Gay Magnet wants me to blog.
I realised this name was, is and will be damn cool !
It's so hip now. Everyone's putting in their msn nicks. xD
I was chatting with this gay magnet last night from 9.45p.m till 3.30a.m
GOSH! That ugly fat pig xD wants me to entertain him until so late. Causing me to be deprived of my beauty sleep.
I'm feeling damn stressed now because of maths. It's gonna kill my brain or me sooner or later. Someone save mee!

Sunday, June 11, 2006

Yay! My whole Saturday was wasted!
Ok, not really wasted when i say i'm doin CIP... =|
I was supposed to go 看中医. But then it was too rushing... then can't go. Rushed all the way to City Hall to meet the rest of netballers. Went for lunch then headed to Toa Payoh Sports Hall to start our CIP.
First it was carrying of all the heavy cartons of FnB. Then it was packing and unpacking them. I was helping out at the Schools Registration with Sylvia, Broc and Mabel. It was slack lah! Just that we didn't get to enjoy the air con with the rest who were working inside the hall.
Schools came, we gave out drinks and brochures or "netball magazine". Whatever it was, we worked from 5.30-7.30. Sitting out there stoning.
After that, we finally could go in to watch NSL(Netball Super League)Grand Finals. I was so enthu about helping out for CIP cos i wanted to get the NSL shirt! HAHA. This year's design is nice =D

Halfway through the ever so exciting match with the crowds cheering for Vipers and Stingrays, we had to go clear all the leftover drinks and food and gave out to the crowds. But most of them already had more than 2 bottles and 2 boxes of biscuits. -.-'''
Finally at 9.30, the match ended, with Stingrays coming out in victory!
And then all those prizegiving and what nots thne we were released. This year's CIP is slack sia. HAHA... i wanted the shirt only! =D

Thursday, June 08, 2006

Believe it or not. I nearly lost my precious little life last night.
I was slaloming at memorial, and got so damn pissed off by the stupid cones. They are not of equal distance. So i'd rather just slalom BESIDE the cones -.-
Yeah, Dave and me were so pissed xD But he was worse, he sat on floor and threw the cone, LOL.
After much consideration, i decided to go back myself by public transport. No more "chauffuer". =D
Followed Dave back to his house at Farrer Park. So Marcus, Shu Feng and i skated together with Dave through city area back towards Farrer Park. And on the way. We reached this particular red light. WHICH ME stupidly agreed with Dave to CHIONG AH. It was red light. Red man. So it was kinda a gamble. And just as we chiong-ed 1/3 of the road. It turned green light for the cars. Yes, this freaking car saw us and speeded and then HONKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK. $*&&(@*@#*@ And it jammed brake. That driver was senseless. My heart nearly dropped out. The car was just a few metres away from Dave and me. Definitely a close one. Have to be more careful le xD

After that, went to Farrer Park MRT WITH MY SKATES ON. Since there wasn't any sign forbidding skates. Boarded the MRT with my skates and my stinky self. Think the passengers were simply just to tired to really bother me; cos it was already 11.30p.m. I was still anticipating some wierd stares from the older ones that it's dangerous to wear skates on trains -.- So yup. Definitely dangerous on skates; yet the feeling is sure GREAT! =D

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

OK!
Back back back!
Today is the 1st day of my maths tuition. It was pretty good! I cleared some doubts. But i have to really say, practise practise practise and more practise. And yes, my tutor is drilling tan and me like siao. HAHA... RIGHT tannnnn? =P

So now, i'm here on a music hunt to select a song to train my slalom on for Slalomania 2006. And hopefully for Samsung Inline Event as well. Someone recommend me some upbeat song for my routine =D Just need a really short 1min30sec part of a song only. I would also like anyone who has the software/program to cut songs to contact me! Cut songs as in cut the some parts of the song up and edit and stuffs like that.

Yes! So i have many things to work towards to. My maths and slalom! =D
It's good to have goals to work towards to! HEHE

Monday, June 05, 2006

I so sian so so sian so sian!!!!!!!!
Dying!
Hols meant to be skate. But it turned out to be projects, netball, projects, netball.
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!

Hey, oh well. No use. I feel so sucked out of energy.
People says online blog is a waste of time. =D
Indeed it is if you really think about it.
Update for the sake of updating.
ZzZzZzZ

Friday, June 02, 2006

So sorry to all my loyal fans xD
Too lazy and no mood nowadays to update this blog.
Cause my com hang when i uploaded so many pics. Make me all sian diao! Lazy to retype and re upload again. And imagestation doesn't work for me! Everytime can't load.
ERGH!