Wednesday, August 29, 2007

Three Nine

Also known as the craziest class.
This is my first time in TKGS, note, Tanjong Katong Girls' School, we've got a male teacher screaming down our necks till the opposite, if not the entire classroom block; god knows even the circular block? can hear him. Okay, i've made an understatement. He wasn't screaming. He was practically throwing his lungs out.
The scene was 'oh-my-gosh'.
My ears were ringing, and i swear even the table i was sitting on was vibrating due the the ultra magnified sound waves that came out from his mouth. Everyone broke out in fits of laughter when he left with a 'I WILL SEND THE WHOLE CLASS TO THE GENERAL OFFICE' warning that was so high pitched(sissy, i say) due to the excessive screaming/yelling or whatever you called it that was totally inhumane, if we made any more noise.
So much for free periods that clashes with his ever so important DNT subject. Haha! But i must praise him for being such a 敬业乐业 teacher. Well maybe not the 乐 part. But, you get the point. ;)

Teacher's day is coming up. I can't wait for the performance and the aces dance that we're gonna do! And the many many activities arranged during and after the celebrations. Hehe.

When teacher's day is here....

It's the cue for a very special day as well... Mwaahaha.

Sunday, August 26, 2007

2nd chance?

Be open-minded when a friend lets you down -- they have a very good explanation.

A close friend's unfulfilled promise is still leaving a bad taste in your mouth, so a social engagement with them could be a little more stressful than usual. Try to be open-minded about it, and hear them out. After all, no one's perfect -- including you. Think back on all the patience others have shown you, and show some yourself. Don't let any of your unmet expectations rule your heart. People are made of good and bad, and this balance is what makes everyone special.

Thursday, August 23, 2007

Insecurity or stress

It's always much easier to critisize than compliment.
It's always easier to blame someone for something that had gone wrong than to realise it's our own mistake.
It's also easy to feel pessimistic and optimistic in a snap of a finger.

I tried to deduce what's causing the different emotions i feel at times and why when i encounter certain things, it rouses certain 'sleeping memories' stored away.
Maybe at this point, i think it's highly due to the stress i'm facing that causes the insecurity and pessimism that i feel at points of my life. Though, i've yet to find the courage to face if it's a short or long-term psychological problem.

I'm dwelling too much and having too much doubts, i guess.

Perhaps it's time to put it down and go ahead with my instincts.
Know it's always the best thing to do cos, at least i know i've given my best shot.

On a side note, term 3's results are filled with low Bs and Cs with only 1 surprisingly high A.
It feels weird that i still have so much confidence and can't wait to prove myself wrong time and time again. Hmmm, who knows? It's my trend of going up and down. Can't find the consistency. And again, i found the reason why. Holidays do break the momentum.
It'll be hard to focus during holidays and requires a great deal of will to motivate myself to perservere on till the last bit of the year and next.
I know i'm not the sole fighter in this mind battle though, and that's a good encouragement to begin with.

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

RESOLUTION

On this day, 22nd August 2007, I, Jac jac jac jac the pretty girl (self-proclaimed one), makes sure that if i ever make it big some day, i won't be any rich snobs around at all.

That's cos i can't stand people who think money is everything.
They lack the essence of being a human. Just a body with an empty core.
They believe this thing about upper class status. Forgetting about the values.
I'm talking about rich kids.
Feels like a bit of angst is bursting in me huh? ;)
Yeah...
Don't tell me money changed a person lor. I've seen richer kids who have such humble personality that you can't even tell they come from a privileged background.

Please feel free to be guilty if almost your entire life you are concerned about manicures/pedicures/dorothy perkins/fendi/gucci/F21/topshop/LV/and whatever the latest trend is. I don't understand why some girls can just talk about designers' labels the whole time as long as they are free, which guy is so freaking hawttttttt, and what is sooooo sexy. Goshhhh.

Get a life and live it, proper. Haiyo. Buey tahan.

Family

Family life is full of major and minor crises -- the ups and downs of health, success and failure in career, marriage, and divorce -- and all kinds of characters. It is tied to places and events and histories. With all of these felt details, life etches itself into memory and personality. It's difficult to imagine anything more nourishing to the soul.

Thomas Moore

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

Good old things are meant to be kept

I can't forsake the old times, the old little comfy environment, the smell i've gotten used to, the feel i've had difficulty adjusting to, and just when i was making myself comfortable in my warm little nest, i have to start shifting to a cold and strange environment all over again.

I think my life's been quite messed up these past years. I've felt the most, experienced the most most unstable moments. It hasn't been quiet since.

I really hope to be able to find my good old trusty quiet sanctuary to lock myself permanently in there... cos i have a big time adapting to new changes, and it's a very bad thing.
I take time to attach myself to something, and once i start developing feelings to a particular something, it gets sentimental.
Which, in other words, i can't let go.

I feel like crying all out to fill the emptiness inside me; which is quite a futile attempt, really. I keep venturing out. I really need to go back to my safe zone but i don't even know where the zone has gone to...

Sunday, August 19, 2007

Heh heh

It's finally back to the trusty Sony Ericsson again. I totally didn't like the Nokia 7373 that i had because of the poor build quality and outdated functions.
I've just got a new phone!
Introducing jacjac® phone! Yeah, just kidding. This is SE's W580i.
Couple of months back, during June, Wayne and i had exhibition passes to Communic Asia 07, where they were exhibiting mostly electronic/tech gadgets that are coming out to the market but yet to be launched. And, both of us fell in love with this phone since then.
I'd been waiting for the launch of this phone and a little longer for the price to drop before getting mommy to buy.

This phone's gonna be my early birthday gift from her. I'm glad i finally got rid of my other phone. It seriously sucks. Don't like Nokia's software and functions at all. Plus, the battery drains out like water.

I will give some reviews of this phone after a couple more days.

Generally, i'm impressed by what this phone has to offer. With the fitness training programs and all that, it's damn cool. Plus the light effects and the super smooth sliding sensation. Awwww.

That aside, have you guys ever felt that tinge of motivation to study/write whenever you've got new stationery? I bet i do. But this kinda motivation is quite short-lived. Haha. So that means i gotta keep getting new pens and such eh? ;)

Not forgettinggggg....
Our annual cross country event!
For the most glam news of all, Chanel is so glad to announce that she came in last for the x-country race. Yes, and i'm the 2nd last. Hahaha. Both of us were strolling through the entire race. And Miss Izrina actually said that it's also a goal to be the last. So... GO ALL THE WAY! It was hilarious.
AND, 3/9 came in FIRST for Zany Parade!
I think our performance is damn funny, please, just try not too laugh too hard.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IbRK62NgPIA
(it's quite embarrassing putting this up, but whatever hor)
I'm very glad the class cooperated so well with me for this. Wanna thank all of you so much! =)

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

Sadddd

Yay, the results are out.

Some good, some disappointing and some highly expected.

I got freaking low for Lit though. Every. single. time. , i swear, since i took Lit this year, i've never scored a decent grade. I don't know if it's me or him. Either way, it's hard to make out which is which.
And i used to ace through Lit at sec 1 and 2. Hmmmm....?

Though, i'm glad my Chinese and e math improved this term. :)


School aside, i'm going to be shifting out soon!
Partly excited of the new place. Sian of packing. And sian of travelling to and fro from school cos' it's towards the extreme east. Imagine if i wanna go town, it'd so so far.
And i'm always having the privilege of hitting town in 20 mins. I guess it's gonna be double the time from Sept onwards. Nevertheless, less town = less spending of ching ching. Hor? Haha!

My stamina has dropped after 2.4. I don't know how i'm going to survive out x-country this Sat. I'm just gonna faint and die from exhaustion or lack of oxygen. Feel so heavy and breathless so easily.

我是一只小小小小鸟.... Wahahaha...

Sunday, August 12, 2007

Deathly Hallows

It wasn't in vain from the moment i decided to pick up Harry Potter and The Philosopher's Stone when i was Primary 2 or 3. I've just completed the 7th and last series of Harry Potter. And it's really amazing i tell you. Been reading every book since/watching every movie, not that am a fan, but when you something starts, it's gotta end right? ;)

The last book has a very amazing plot closely linked to the 6th book Half Blood Prince.
I'm very awed and impressed by how J.K Rowling managed to piece everything up to a form a big million piece jigsaw puzzle.

And i need to take a break for my poor eyes and physically drained body for a little trip back to the Muggles world. Ha ha ha...
Enough of the Wizarding world, i'm coming back to Singapore!

Monday, August 06, 2007

Boybands

I wonder where my old boybands have disappeared to.
I have been listening to some of my 90s music collections over the years, and realised pop music was especially popular when i was much younger. Recollecting again, i still love their music very much. Especially Westlife and Blue, they've got amazing vocals without all the enhancement from studios.

The C.As are gonna end tomorrow. I can't wait for National Day; holidays, that is. Haha!
I've got a pretty bad feeling i'm gonna fail the Chem C.A that i did today. Almost entirely, i did it from choosing answers and not finding them out logically/theoretically/smartly. How great.
Though, i have confidence in scoring for both math. Actually, i can't wait for O levels. It's this crazy urge in me to see how i'd do at the end of it.

I think i'm not very good in my languages now. Or rather, i'm seeing a significant drop in both chinese and english essay writing. That's pretty disheartening. I guess our strengths change over the years eh? I keep getting complacent with my languages cos' they were the best in Primary school, and Sec 1. Oh well, i still haven't decide whether to go Poly/JC and which courses i'd like to go to, if i should go to a Poly.

And, we were each given our target (depending on our PSLE performance/school cohort/MOE system) set by the school for our EOY and O level results.


Eng - A2
Higher Chinese - A2
Combined Humans ( SS, Hist ) - A2
Lit - A1
A math - A1
Math - A1
Chem - A2
Physics - A2

L1R5 - 9

These are the results i've gotta aim to get.
Let's see how far away i am from them for my Term 3 results.
Hopefully not too disappointing.

And there's no time to slack, cos after 3 weeks from the Sept holidays, we're gonna start on Final Year exams already. It's crazy how Singapore's education system works. No wonder they've nurtured crazy people like me; that is, those who actually finds joy in studying.
Bwahaha

Thursday, August 02, 2007

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I'm not sure if my expectations are always that high, or sometimes low.

I feel so happy and disappointed all at the same time.

Help me, someone?

Hai, why are human beings so hard to satisfy. I can't satisfy my own ego, my hopes, and my wants.
Nothing is ever good if i remain this way.
Ha~

I only know one thing, I'll give the best i can... wishing for no regrets. Wishing for no returns... which is hard. We all need some little encouragement sometimes... to feel we're appreciated.

But yes, i'm trying.

I love you more than you'll ever know...
I can't even remember the number of times i've cried because of you...
And it's all for this little crazy thing called love...

It's my first, and i'll make it the best i've ever had.

The best life i've ever led, with you and you great friends out there.