Sunday, December 30, 2007

having fun in waters

It's been a really great(i know great's a really 'pri-sch-word') day today. It's the once a year 'meet-tianjun-cos-either-of-us-don't-want-to-travel-so-far' rendezvous. He brought his girl, i brought my guy, and we went kayaking at Lower Seletar. See, in the end i give in to him, go closer to his house. Hais~ =p
This thing about him and me, we obviously aren't gentlemen about letting the other party 'win' in whatever things. Ha~

Anyway, just like any other times i went kayaking, it was very serene for the mind and soul. Very few people would go. Maybe cos the timing is right, they've gotta make way for my grand entrance. Haha! We were splashing each other, having fun and all that. Then we had romantic times with our other half. Then we even squeezed FOUR people net weight = 250kg on a single kayak. It was hilarious. We thought we were gonna sink. But no, kayak was only flooded, just for kicks.

I really really enjoy such outings... =)
It's a pity we didn't take any pics!

Friday, December 28, 2007

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

Merry Christmas & a Happy New Year 2008

Didn't think the year would fly by that fast!
School is starting in a week's time. I'm on a rollercoaster ride of emotions about school. Anxious, cheery, stressed, enthusiastic.
Christmas has just passed. The past 2 years i'd spent with skaters. And the 3rd year coming along in my sec sch days, i spent it relaxing at home with dearest people.

Holidays can be quite a bore. But with him taking a week's leave to spend quality time with me, i don't regret at all. The spark's reignited. Suddenly i feel i understand you at a even deeper level, of course pam&tan too. I feel loved... by all of you lovely friends and loved one.
Any misunderstandings' been cleared. It feels like we're all heading for a brand new start!

Looking forward to 2008 don't you all monkeys do? =p

Friday, December 21, 2007

Missed

Yes! I've finally got a new com with new wireless net connection. Good things come in a package huh? I didn't mind the long wait at all.

Recently there's so many things happening and i don't have the habit to blog already. Maybe cos' of the netless environment that caused me to be this way.
But anyhow, i've been back to reading again. It's good to not have the net once a while. Makes me wanna do something more useful rather than staring at a white screen figuring what's fun.
I've been wanting to get hold of Dan Brown's books but never did because of the lack of enthusiasm; i don't blame anyone but myself. And finally, my life saviour, Pamcake told me she had a couple of nice books to lend.
Chances and opportunities sure come at the right time.

Heard that a new girl will be joining our class next year; which is only 2 more weeks to 2008. Everytime i hear of new girls, reminds me of how excited i'll be cos i can't wait to meet new people. But somehow, i'm not very consistent with the warm welcome. Ha ha. I'm not the kind of people-people. Not good at PR. Well i might have said before that i'm O.K at PR. But well, whatever.

I think i need some attitude check. Ha... i suck in some various ways that only someone knows. Tsk. Don't know why i'm so reactive also. I'm known to be the bo-chup one. But sometimes i'm so petty and insensitive. I know they are new words to describe me. But reality hits, sometimes i am and i don't deny.

People say it takes 2 hands to clap. But i don't know why it's only this that stumps me. I can't seem to find the problem why i behave like that. Everytime i run through my head and remind myself, i just seem to let my emotions get the better of me. And when things do happen, i'll regret after that. Many times it happened, i think back feeling so useless and stupid over my own actions. But at that particular moment, i try and understand from another perspective. I can't find any reason and excuse not to be behaving in a certain manner. It's really hard understanding oneself sometimes. I'm really confused.
Well, time to stop pushing the blame. If i have anyone to blame, it'd be myself. Really have to drill it in my head to keep my attitude in check.

Christmas is coming~ can't wait!

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Everybody's changing

It's been long since the virtual me has been around.
Just some updates, my home doesn't have any net connection right now. Though it can be boring, but somehow i think i've adapted to a net-less life at home.

Just now, i saw a primary sch teacher on the train. In the past when i was still in pri sch, i used to be afraid of her. But now, she looked like any ordinary young woman. Nothing tigress or frightening about her.

My 1st relationship has gone as long as 1 year now. We just celebrated together yesterday.

I'm really growing up already...

Wednesday, December 05, 2007

Can't believe it...

It's 3 more weeks into the month, and the start of a new year!
With all the decor up around the city, really puts one in the festive mood.
Time for merry-making, presents exchanging, and making of resolutions for 2008.

With time zipping past so quickly, i've kinda forgotten about the school holiday homework(if there's any in the first place), forgot my target of studying almost every day because of the very undesirable results for my finals, forgot that O levels are coming up next year and i'm slacking like there's no tomorrow.


Now i know the real sense of achievement of working and getting paid. During June when i had earned about SGD600+ working at mom's co., i didn't even get to have a glimpse of the cash and it was deposited into my bank acc. This time, i had the opportunity to hold SGD200 cash in notes in my hands. It's different, trust me. ;)

I think i've became very thifty ever since i had my own ATM card. It's as if every money i could save, i would. Though, that theory of mine applies to my own money only. =p
Saving for rainy days? Maybe.

I've been trying to keep my temper in check recently. I ain't no goodie girl when i really think about it. So much for trying to improve myself, only to realise i'm barely even there. I have these weird outburst of temper, then the crazy high mood, then next moment, i don't give a damn. Mood swings they call it. But it's really like a hyperactive monkey swinging about.
I'm like this time bomb that goes off any moment when it's too hot; then i become a happy lark when i feel like it.

Comparison makes the other pale. And i've been doing it. Maybe that's why my temper's so hot. Heh who knows? I try to analyse my moods but end up they analyse me more than i try to do them. Simply to put it, my mood controls my mind more often than not.
Maybe this is the time of the teenage angst phase thingy that i'm going through.

Livin' the life... lovin' my youth.

Monday, December 03, 2007

Standard Chartered Marathon 2007

The 4 great runners who completed the 10km marathon. It was shoik running in CBD area early in the morning. Air was perfect, atmosphere was great, my body was in tip top condition. No stitches, no demoralized mindset, nothing but a leisure jog.

I feel so good after completing the run.

These are my results:
I'll definitely do much better in my next race seeing that i barely trained for this one and i wasn't one of the last few to come in. *evil grin*

Sunday, December 02, 2007

Fragile

Pam just told me this today; seemingly i haven't been updating myself well enough; that a fellow TKGian had passed on.

I suppose this appeared in the ST on 1st Dec - http://www.straitstimes.com/Free/Story/STIStory_182331.html

I didn't feel the full impact until after i read what happened.
I've seen her in school before, and i even know a couple of the other prefects.

I feel so insecure about the fragility of life that we so often take for granted.