Monday, July 27, 2009

Big and bulging - Literary Technique

The report slip with individual subject tutor's comments has arrived! It's pretty neat reading how these teachers are able to come up with something for each individual from the huge numbers of students they teach. It also tells a lot of how the teacher perceives a student during lessons and the behaviour that the student exudes during lessons. Though I must say that some of the comments are indeed not really ideal for the parent's eyes, I'm sure my mom somehow can't comprehend what's in there, hopefully. Ha ha ha...

Aside from that, I realised that the most valuable advice is not given from someone who knows a lot, but from yourself and that is derived from the experience, and it definitely works out way better than any other advices from other people. It's been quite a trying time for me feeding advices, I guess that's how all of us learn - we pick up after ourselves when we fall. It's a painful process, but it's the best process to nurture us.

I've finally come to terms to the mess that i've created and decluttered it myself. Thanks for the enlightenment - there goes one burden.

I just attended a solemnisation ceremony yesterday. All these thoughts of my future always come flooding like a huge barrage. How will mine be like, i wonder.

Whose fault is it anyway?

It's been a lingering thought throughout my bro and my puberty years - how much of us are shaped by the way our parents brought us up?
Nobody would believe that my brother and I are even related because of the extremity of our worlds, even I doubt myself at times.
He wasn't in such a disastrous state when he was much younger, before our parents were divorced. He wasn't that bad tempered, he swored he hated smoke and would never touch a cig. Look at how much things he said has changed - Club, drink, drive and smoke is the lifestyle now.

They always say that the head of the household are males and that theory has not failed in my house. When my dad left, my brother seemed to naturally take over. Demanding and overbearing, everything has to go his way. My mom is at a loss sometimes she rather remain silent. How did my brother even turn out like that?

Is is really the parents' fault or purely the wrong mix of friends?
I seriously doubt NS will change anything.

Which brother tells his own sister this...
Me: "Can you lower down the volume?" -stereo in the car blasting-
Bro: "You don't like then get out of the car!"

Nothing breaks my heart more than my own family.

Sunday, July 19, 2009

NSSCC 2009


It's been one of the best events ever this year that has happened. I've had sooooo much fun for the last month till now. All those crazy strenuous-push-yourself-to-the-limit trainings during the holidays in June with Rah my gossipmonger partner who's been through so much sweat and laughter together with me. I can never express how contented i feel to be surrounded with all of the lovely climbers around me. All the "Go Jac! That's it! All the way! Good job Jac!" during the competition, it's more than enough as a gift for me. Without all the moral support that I have received, i'll never be able to make my own mark. I can never thank the whole of TJCCC and Mr. Kao enough.

I really want to be able to bring the climbing club to a whole new level!

Friends

Last week, Chanel and me tried to do many silly things for the camera and we had a good time laughing. This week is another episode of laughter. Look at that silly girl... she went to the kitchen and started taking out all the fruits that my mom just bought and took a knife and chopping board and went away with the slicing and peeling.

The outcome:

There's strawberries, mango, starfruit and grapes in it. After settling the plate on the dining table, she exclaimed "See! Whoever marry me is so lucky ok... know how to prepare all these!"
After our really fulfilling dinner made up of chicken wings and swedish meatballs from Ikea and homecooked dishes, we proceeded for a round of O2Jam. Trust me, I swear we are the only people who plays the one-player game with 3 people pressing the keys. So retarded right? Thanks to the slowness of the other 2. Ha ha ha :P There was a particular song where there were so many 'cool's and the combo was getting so big, then we realised.... THAT IT WAS ON AUTO PLAY MODE. Oh.my.gosh. Just as we thought we suddenly got so pro. What a waste.

Finally when I felt not so full and decided to take a shower, i turned on the toilet lights and got the shock of the night. This 小精灵 had decided to jump into the basin for a little nap!
When i said "aiyoooooo sushi ah!" She purred back at me. Super cute!




Dedicated to Tan Chanel, even though I know she wouldn't appreciate my taste in 老歌, but oh well! :P Just like you can stand my chao lao-ness, i can stand your auntie-ness anytime man.
Bunny, you'll definitely live more than 50 years from now la, so it'll prove ‘我说情人却是老的好'. ;)

Friday, July 17, 2009

What ifs

Who knew how humans can be so intelligent yet amazingly flawed?
How do we go about dealing with people whom we know will not connect the same way?
What are we supposed to say when we feel otherwise?
Where are we going to find that perseverance and tolerance for the imperfections?
Why do things don't always go according to what we want?

I am still searching for these answers, but I know it's going to be endless journey.

I guess it's just live and let live....

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Jitters

I found that composure I needed so badly for the Difficulty climb during Sunday morning at Yishun Safra. The previous Safra Climb² was just ruined by all the anxiety I showed during the climb. This time I really focused on the climb and nothing else, kept conditioning my mind not to run wild just before the climb. It's a good experience to be the first to climb, sort of like onsight but not exactly because of the demo climbs, but still the gauge is different due the the pro-ness of those demo-ers. If I can maintain such mental conditioning just before the comp on this coming Saturday for finals, hopefully I can make my own breakthrough after climbing competitively for 7 months.


I've officially fallen sick.
What with the flu bug, sore throat and tormenting body aches... I really need a god-given pill to recover overnight!

Saturday, July 11, 2009

Life is unfair

And so that's what they say.

My favourite subject and I scored the lowest of all my other subjects. That's impossible. I think it's complacency because i think i understand it but actually my knowledge about it is that shallow.
Econs ah econs... sigh~
Math was as usual, careless here careless there. Why do i always have to be so careless with numbers? Maybe cos' i didn't have a good foundation like my languages and my mental calculation just seem to suck quite hard.

There are so many newly launched condos sprouting up in the east that i want to view. The exclusive Silversea at Amber Road, Dakota Residences... etc
I am too in love with interior design.
Sometimes i wonder if at the end of the day, i'll just end up taking ID in Uni. So much for wasting time going to Sec. school taking double science and not art, so much for taking subjects unrelated to design in JC. If i was in NAFA... if only, but too bad i'm not. So ya, get over it man. People's been telling me why are you wasting your time when you already know what you are interested in, i don't know either. That's so untypical of myself.

The National Schools Sport Climbing Championship is tomorrow, speed.... here i come, but not quite speedy myself. Let's see how i malu myself. Ha ha

Wednesday, July 08, 2009

从开始到现在


你真的忘得了你的初恋情人吗
假如 有一天
你遇到了跟他长得一模一样的人
他真的就是他吗 还有可能吗
这是命运的宽容 还是
另一次不怀好意的玩笑

Dreams

I have so much things i wanna do...

With nothing in order, I hope to be able to take up the PADI open water diving course, and go diving for leisure.
I've been talking about 1 star kayaking since 3 years back...
I want to go jet-ski in the open seas again soon enough...
I want to go to Switzerland and learn how to snow-ski!
I want to go go-karting again... maybe try Batam's this time round.
I want to go Japan and eat super fresh sashimi by the sea side
I want to learn interior design, but not do it as a career... maybe i should start taking photographs of the interior of my current and subsequent new homes and look through the before and after of learning interior design.
I want an entry level DSLR, badly.

And i am very interested in drift driving... but Singapore's definitely not the place to explore for this.

Wouldn't it be nice to take a gap year before Uni and do some of these activities...?
SO, big question... who's going to pay for all of these expensive wants?
I'm sure i'll find a way.
But the way for now is to pia and get past As first. Let's just talk about PROMOS first.... LOL.

Thursday, July 02, 2009

Sushi

Lonely dinners every night... has become not so lonely with Sushi's companion.
She seriously sits there throughout my meal and watch me eat without being greedy to sniff the stuffs(maybe cos there's no fish)