As I wander, i wonder...

Today is my first time i knocked off so early to go home. Lynette's hubby sent bro and me home. During the journey in the car, we were listening to classics.

Lynette's hubby: "Are you guys falling asleep?"

Bro & me: "Uh, no."

Some time later...

Lynette's hubby: "Shall i change the music?"

*switches to 933FM*

Lynette: "They all and us got generation gap.."
Me: "Huh, no la! After work listen to these kinda music more relaxing..."

Lynette: "Harh? 你这么老了啊？"

*switches back to classical music again*

Lynette's hubby: "You guys must have a hard day at work to appreciate such music like me..."

I was trying to stifle my laughter. 

How nice... I want to create this kinda life.

Solitude

Could it be called solitude? Or rather a night of loneliness?

It's a friday. It didn't feel like one. I was sitting on my bed thinking as i was drifting into unconsiousness. I opened my eyes in the dark and thought... i've been doing the same thing every day at work, it made me lost track of time. I didn't know it was friday till my mom mentioned it in the office. Back at school, we followed the timetable, so we had maximum knowledge of what days were coming and which day we were looking forward to. Now i can really understand why some people can be so busy at work until they lose track of the time.

I finally understood why my mom needed to turn up the volume of the tv when she's alone at home. I did the same thing. I felt so empty without any life around me. My mom always said i loved peace and serenity, i think it's just a nicer way of saying that i wanted some quiet time and space for myself. But now that i have an abundance of it tonight, i felt so different. I didn't feel calm nor relaxed. I felt exhausted after a day's work, then the feelings of being forsaken started pouring in. I had all the necessary material items to entertain myself - PSP, TV and handphone. The TV being in the background... i hugged sushi and stroked her for quite a while. I checked my phone a couple of times, waiting for a message.

I waited... and waited...and continued waiting.

My bed time arrived and i still haven't received a single message...

Maybe a sorry will suffice my being,

maybe not.

Maybe i don't want a seclusive piece of heaven to recline in anymore, i just need company and laughter.

See told ya so

I still haven't received the photos! WHY!

Tio mucus!!!!!!!

I'm cracking my head over the 2nd year anniversary present... dum dee dum.

How about you? ;)

I'm just blogging cos' i feel like writing something, but i don't know what to. I'm kinda like a bad writer with no inspiration! 

Wellll, today's work was tiring. I think i can almost stare through the computer and start a fire with my powerful blazing eyes. AND, time flies when you're not noticing the clock! Every day seems like a whirl, 5.30p.m arrives very fast and i'll stay for a little while longer finishing up the day's work, hopefully.

I'm already thinking about what i should have for lunch tomorrow. Hawker fare again! It's been a while since i actually stepped into a kopitiam to order any food. I know i'm a fortunate and blessed and pampered naughty girl. 

But ever since i've started work, all i've learnt to say is yes. Never no. 

My sushi is behind the cupboard digging shit out. Grr! Hates how she always find some way to crawl somewhere dark and dusty and musty and get herself all grossed out, or rather me grossed out. 

I've been having too many O level results dreams. Just last night, i dreamt of myself getting 12 points! Ruby got 8 and nel got 6. AND i was wondering where the hell am i going to go with 12 points, then i ended up being so frustrated and signed my fate to tampines jc. 

It's not exciting to be dreaming of such dreadful dreams. I don't want them to be dejavu.

The christmas season has set in for me.

"Last christmas i gave you my heart, the very next day, you gave it away..."

I want many many christmas presents and good food! Yum yum

The channel 8 9PM show is don't know what 小娘惹, like not interesting cos the show so olden even if the actors/actresses are young, so now my 9pm nights are left wondering what i should do. I've already read the day's papers, i'm only waiting for my forensic heroes at 10pm. I know this is super random, because i really have nothing to do. And that fat nel, i've stopped playing neopets, god! 955k neopoints and i was still so determined to get it to 1mil but all that zest is gone. 

Then i tried switching to playing CS, guess what?

The same old same happened. 5 minutes into the game and i had a major splitting headache. I should just kill myself or my character by jumping off the buildings. I love shooting games, but i'm bored of those at the arcades. Can they bring in more interesting machines? Wayne and I had a sudden urge to be young all over again, we chiong arcades for 3 days consecutively. We completed Rambo, and he downloaded all 4 movies. I still want to play House of Dead 4 though. Why did we last so long the last time i played at Ehub with my american cousins and now that i played with him again, we died pretty quickly. WHY WHY WHY. Maybe the gun sucked now cos' too many people touched it! HA! So much for excuses.

I think i really need to have more female hormones.

Firstly, i read that male hormones causes all the pimples and zits and acne, i know they're all the same. 

Secondly, maybe i wanna try playing with barbie doll. HAHA. 

Thirdly, i want to stop the urge on seeing tamiya cars and thinking of how much i wanted to play with one when i was young last time.

Fourthly, i dreamt of myself having a dick, i know. it's like WTF! 

Fifthly, i have the urge to znggggggg my own car when i do have one next time; revamp the entire sound system so that i'll be having a crazy club session each time i'm in the car. I was kidding about the club session, but i seriously will bring it to the car shop to get great speakers fitted into the car. 

Sixthly, maybe i should just wish that i'll stop behaving like a male.

But then again, i still love myself for who i am and what i do. 

What a week

Tomorrow's gonna be thursday, i was planning to be in bed by 12am, but it's 2 minutes past 12. I gotta wake up a little earlier tomorrow for mom to be on time for her meeting. The past few days have been quite energy draining for me maybe because of the lack of sleep and nap times in the noon. I have been quite a pig for the past months that now i have to survive through the day from the morning till late evening without a break, and it proves to be taking a toll on me. 

Just yesterday, I had this really interesting conversation with my brother. I asked him why Sushi likes to go near the fan and lie around there. He was like, there's vibration what. I got caught off guard with that kinda reply and went, what has the vibration got to do with her lying there, don't tell me it makes her high. Lmao.

Today, he took his basic driving test for the 3rd time. I messaged him at 1.54pm to find out about the results, and he told me he failed. Who knows, he called my mom subsequently in the office after that and told her about the entire process of how he managed to pass in the end. I only came to know about him passing the BTT at night when my mom told me he lied to me. She even tried to make me feel guilty cos' i told my brother i was gonna help test him to familiarise with the questions and i didn't. I can't wait for him to get his license and ferry me around everywhere!

Every day i think about where i will end up in 2009...

21st November

It's always a pretty date to remember because i know of the most number of people whose birthday falls on this date. I was thinking of waiting for pictures before blogging, but you can't really trust human and their procrastination at times, hence this post is coming without pictures. 

Just the previous day on 20th, my mom's extended family went out together to celebrate for so many things. 

- Youngest cousin achieving 255 for PSLE

- Uncle's birthday

- Wayne's birthday

- Wayne's promotion at work

- Virgil's arrival from HK

What else? It was a happy occasion, surely impromptu, but everyone turned up. 

We had dinner at Crystal Jade at T3, talking about T3, there was this occasion when I went there with oink and nel, and oink was just saying let's go T3 to eat. God knows what T3 was, in my mind i had this impression that it was some cafe like TEA TREE. So much for my ignorance!

It's been a long time since i've had ice cream cake from swensens. I remember i used to love their cakes as a child. 

On 21st, we went out for lunch at sizzler's before heading to the Flyer. I always thought i had a phobia for heights, but i could last the 30 minute ride, and it sure was fast. I always ask stupid questions like "what if i need to shit halfway in the capsule?" or when we're in the train "what if i need to shit halfway?". I just might have something wrong in my tummy that's causing the incontrollable urge to defecate whenever my rectum can't hold no shit anymore. Don't laugh, i'm not kidding.

After the Flyer, we headed to Far East Square to catch the Das Experiment: Black Box. It was the exact same place that FFAF was held at. The air-conditioning sucks. I prefered the other location where the pillowman was held previously. Comparing the kinda psychological thriller plays, i think pillowman was definitely better. Maybe because they have hotter actors, and more English blood than Singaporean blood and it was definitely more dramatic and real. Maybe because it's SRT's production as well.

It was his virgin experience for plays, hopefully it'll be the beginning of many more to come. 

We went for supper at Chomp Chomp after that. I had the initial plan of wanting to make him drunk, but it didn't work out the way i wanted. I called the lazy nel to come and join us, and she was too busy being in her PJs and computer to care about me. The stingray wasn't nice like the last time i ate with nel. I wonder why. It's chomp chomp, how can stingrays not be nice! I'm thoroughly tired and heartbroken that I didn't get to eat nice stingray.

I was glad the belt i bought for him suited nicely. Thanks to nel and oink, we really can get things done quite fast at times huh ;) 

I had a nightmare some nights back. The image of my O lvl results were super clear, and they read:

B3, B3, D7, D7, K9, K9.

My god, don't ask me why K9, it just appeared as K9 when it's supposed to be F9 and there's only 6 subjects. I woke up and felt the reality or lack thereof of the dream. 

Ahhhhhhhhh, how many more weeks to the truth?