Monday, February 26, 2007

Innocence or experienced?

When i think about little kids, innocence and purity come into my mind. In a more straightforward way to put it; naive.

You see little kids, they don't know that they shouldn't play with fire. They don't know they shouldn't touch the iron. They don't know so many things.

Because they are inexperienced.

They have never experienced the consequences of all the above actions. Therefore such feelings are raw and fresh for them. They want to experience it.

When i was a kid, i knew nothing about pain. I just knew how to have fun. I wanted to play all the things that adults wouldn't allow. Because that's what we are best at: rebellion.
"You are not supposed to play this" I will play it. "You are supposed to do your work" I will not do.

Then, people said there are these many doors to our heart. These doors lead to a new emotion, to a new feeling. Each individual door is wide open when we are an infant.
Year after year, as the more we go through, the more experiences we have, the more doors will close each time. We get used to the feelings that we don't find them fresh anymore, therefore these doors start shutting themselves. We no longer get the same adrenaline rush as the very first experience we had.

When we get older, we know what the dangers of various activities are because we have experienced it before. Our brain stores information that this particular action of doing something will lead to an emotion or a feeling.
Put it this way, if it was a good feeling, our mind will connect it with positive feelings. Say, we managed to top the class. Our brain subconsciously stores the feelings and whenever we want to feel happy, we think of those thoughts.
Then again, if it was a bad feeling, it will be connected to negative feelings as well. That's where our sub-conscious self will slowly back away from it. Thus the doors of our heart close.

If someone was hurt before emotionally, wouldn't that person be afraid of it and not dare to open again?
It's a pity then. Once these doors close, we never give them new chances nor new hopes. We become insensitive and numb from these feelings. Slowly... we miss opportunities that only happen once.
We will never find the same friends back, never the same lover, never the same family, never the same things we once owned.
We want to be experienced, yet we yearn for the innocence of a child. It's a difficult thing to let both happen hand in hand. Experiencing while not closing the doors of our heart....

It takes courage and more courage to do so.

Fine print:
"Life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness"
If anyone caught The Pursuit of Happyness yet, perhaps it'll make more sense. It was said in the movie...
why wasn't it called just happiness? Why
the pursuit of happiness?
because we are always pursuing happiness... but more often than not, we do not get happiness. we are always just in the process of pursuing it....
it's disheartening, ain't it?

1 comment:

.:Thelinuxboi: said...

its just like the basics of NLP. PPle like to do things they associate with positive things. LIke playing game sfor example, and pple dun like doing what they associate negative thigns with, like studying.

Yet, some pple's positive and some pple's negative... are diff xD Like in a relation. Some pple who are deeply hurt in relation connects relation with negative things, so therefore, they dun wan relation. Whereas, u know the former.

nd u might call it doors closing, or u might call it experinces. U might consider it good, or bad. its all in the perception