It's a gift

Life's been rather hectic lately. With so many things to catch up. Friends... dear friends to spend time with. I've been neglecting you guys for quite some time before the exams. Now it's time to unwind and relax. I know i've became a mountain tortoise already. I never go out, i never go shopping, i never check out the 'in' things, i don't know what's popular. Gosh, i'm so not meant to be a teenager. Big time slacker slacking around in the house with nothing really that interesting to do anyway.

After the preparations for the mid-years and all, results are out.
Basically, i'm a little disappointed but satisfied all the same.
I've put in effort, i know i did, there's room for improvement but somewhat the standard's there, the limit is there. I know myself. Though we never restrict ourselves to whatever, only striving to look forward and improve.
Hopefully we are as encouraging as we can be, with more effort, even if we don't do well, we know we did try. Maybe it's not the time to shine yet. Some time later, eventually we will.
The competition in the school is really strong. I've realised. We're all studying like mad fools trying to outwit each other. Trying to get the desired average. Or just trying hard to stay in the school.
I keep having the mindset that studying's simple. It actually is. But with the pressure and stress from too many factors. It makes it difficult.

Now i understand what studying hard and smart really mean. In the past, it's just study for the sake of it. But it's not the case anymore. Both gotta work hand in hand to do well. Loads of practices, hard work, effort, and most importantly, the time you dedicate to doing well. I always don't understand why people can score easily. We all have the same teachers/environment, and we're all human beings. It's actually how much effort we're willing to put in to scoring well.
Not that i'm very satisfied with my results, but i know i did try. I'm glad i did. It's a different feeling for the process although the end-result is still quite the same.

Next thing's that i learnt something. I learnt that i've made the right choices for the past few months. And i'm glad i made it right. Our life's filled with choices and decisions for us to make every single day, and it affects us very much with our decision at the end. I tried new methods to solving problems. And surprisingly, i'm impressed with the results. Our emotions affect how others react. To the desired outcome, i realised we have sacrifices to make. Either we give in, or we lose out. It's quite simple. Human psychology i guess. The more you get it, the more you won't treasure. The lesser you achieve, the more drive there is. The hunger for power. The hunger for acceptance. The more you can't fit in, the harder you try. It's an endless cycle. To break the endless cycle; go for something you've never done before. Surprise people. Surprise yourself with the results.
You'll feel different, i guarantee.
You'll feel you've achieved something you've never did in the past.
And, it's a great feeling.


Love can surprise us out of the blue and send us dancing...