Thursday, August 25, 2011

Help

I can't believe how fast my life has changed in a week. I was still gloating over how relaxed Uni life is because I was consistently ahead of lessons. Well, that only lasted for one week. One very pathetic week. I am struggling to keep my head above the waters now and with very sore muscles it's making life even tougher.

I'm mentally screaming in my mind everytime I think about the workload and projects and presentations. I am thankful for having the confidence to speak and present because it really saves a lot of time rather than preparing a speech and memorising to the death of it.

Training is exceptionally tough and I'm still in my culture shock adaptation stage. I am really slow in getting used to new environments and right now I am still finding a place to settle. It sucks to feel lost, because I need a direction to proceed. These are times to feel bad and down, but I can't find a reason to crumble totally. Trust me, the feeling of hanging in between is way tougher to handle than swinging on the extremes. Because when you want to cry out to release your emotions, you can't.

Every morning I wake up like a machine, eyes swollen from water retention and head spinning from the lack of sleep. I proceed to drive an exceptional long way to school faced with traffic jam and inconsiderate drivers. And honestly I have no right to complain because I have such a privilege. It makes me feel like life is so volatile. And I'm really missing friends... just friends to sit down and lie around and not talk at all but merely to immerse in the atmosphere and relax. There's so much tension in my body I feel so unnatural and jerky all the time as if I'm always forgetting to do something. Too many things on the mind with too little time to do them all. I should tone down the ambitions and be a little normal kid... or at least try.

Monday, August 15, 2011

5 Wisdoms

1. If you are right, then there's no need to get angry. And if you are wrong, then you don't have any right to get angry.

2. Patience with family is love. Patience with others is respect. Patience with self is confidence.

3. Never think hard about past, it brings tears. Don't think more about the future, it brings fears. Live this moment with a smile, it brings cheers.

4. Every test in our life makes us bitter or better. Every problem comes to make us or break us. Choice is ours, whether we become victim or victorious.

5. Search a beautiful heart, not a beautiful face. Beautiful things are not always good, but good things are always beautiful.

Sunday, August 07, 2011

NUS Business O Week 2011

The good exposure I've had to varsity life starts from here, and it opens my world.
There are really people from all walks of life, and they each have amazing talents and abilities.

I feel so blessed to be around here in this moment. It just feels like everything has so much potential, so much possibilities, and so much limits to break.

Here goes my life... the life I've been looking forward to since Secondary; the life that I can fully mould in my hands, by myself, and be proud of whatever the results are.