Stuffs..stuffs

Yeah, really alot of stuffs happening in my life now. Don't really feel all things rushing past me, but now as i look back, so many things had happened and i still manage to be alive but not kicking. haha.

School is reopening again, yeah, sorry had to repeat so many times, but IT IS really gonna reopen so soon. Major thing...more stress, more commitments. A review of this holiday at the back of my mind, it didn't really seemed like a fruitful one, only a few things that is. I managed to finish the 1 week of remedial for Maths during the hols. It was like going to school for another week, but only doing all maths. Well, yup, before holidays started, and i got the notice slip to attend, i was feeling so down and all, that this had to interrupt my holidays. But it was really a breeze, and now i look back, its like that wasn't a challenge at all, and before that i was still thinking how i was gonna survive a week of maths, a subject which i wasn't good in at all.
So we really focused on it.

And then came another thing, netball. Yeah. Thrice a week of trainings for the ENTIRE holiday. Every week. Gosh. I really really wonder how i managed to go for every training without feeling exhausted. I think i got used to it already. Immune to it. haha! Err.. oops! Skally the coaches come read i die. haha. Yeah. Now holidays already coming to an end. 2 months of entire supposed-to-be-slacking-but-actually-not holiday flew past. The netball camp was supposed to be a "torture" camp, but it wasn't all that torturing in fact. And now looking back at how everything had past, i must look forward to the future, and not remembering all the past.

Ive finally gotten a new pair of skates, which i didn't really pin much hope in getting. I only mentioned in a few times that i was interested in getting, but with my grades next year. Thats because i only just gotten a pair recently, abt 2 mths ago. And now im requesting for another better skate. Yup, so pretty much about that, i was shocked when my mom said that; my bro had actually really tried talking to her about his plans, then she decided to buy it for him. And well, she said since hes getting one, she don't mind getting another for me. But it came with conditions too, and for plans in the future.

From that too, i learnt to really appreciate what i have gotten, be it materials or what. Like i've said many times, i only get something which i had put in effort for. But this pair of skates, i didn't really request for them, and i got them so easily and surprisingly too. My mom constantly reminds us of how lucky we are, how we are getting things so easily, and whatever we ask for, compared to other people around us.. who aren't that fortunate.
I also really appreciate the amount of effort/trust/understanding my mom put in/gave, because not every 13 year old girl gets to go out everyday, come home so late every night..and mixing with so many other people outside, which she doesn't really know all of whom im hanging out with. Ive got so much freedom, but i don't notice it, until recently, then i saw how my cousins are really restricted at home...

Another thing, i met really nice people, learn alot of things, certainly much matured again from Sec 1. Especially from benben=p, haha..he doesn't like me calling him that. aww :P
anyway, yeah. I always judge someone by their cover, and i dont even realise that. Because that was exactly the same way my uncle had been behaving. And until recently, i really try very hard to change my point of view. My uncle had been critisicing the people he saw skating with us, and judge all of them as "bad company". Which i really dislike, because he didn't even talk to them, and summarise all of them as "smokers/gangsters who create troubles". Thats also when i found out that my cousins dont have that amount of freedom to socialise with whoever they meet, because whenever they meet new people, they always get judged by parents. It's supposed to be concerning with who your kids mix with, but not to a certain extent when he gets overprotected and not seeing what the real world is like.

If he/she doesn't meet people from all walks of life, how would they grow up in future to be? Naive adults? Thinking that everyone/everything is always good? Yeah, that kinda got to me when my mom was telling us. She always said when she was a teenager, she is "huai guo lai", that means she was once a bad teen too, until she grew up then did she realise that. So she perfectly understand what stage we are going through now. And thats also why shes taking such a big risk of letting my brother and i into the real world, the world filled with people from all walks of life, to widen our vision. To see what is really bad and what is really good. Even gangsters have their good points, bad as they may be, but they love their moms and if anyone ever dare talk bad about them, good luck to you, and they are always loyal to their friends.
So the morale of the story that i had learnt after so much...that i really have to open my eyes, be more alert with my surroundings, not being too naive, and mix with the people whom we think is best for us. But as for others who isn't our type, a simple "hi" would do, and nothing else would be needed. We would still remain as friends, and not offend anyone.

LASTLY. after so long. I love the song that is playing on my blog right now. Qing Hua-Jay Chou

Peace out.