Tuesday, April 01, 2008

Self-worth

Perfectionists like me regard criticism as a failure for what i am trying to achieve, or have already achieved. Somehow, it has a bad effect because i will start questioning my self-worth. Since i am a failure, does it make me worthless as a person on the whole? I think the creator of human kind has his way of balancing everything. I realised that i am however very optimistic after a while. It's ironic how things actually should be like.

I came up with an equation today during Lit,

Pam & Tan --> Season + Ruby --> Italy = Clique Crisis

If we all decide to take a step back and not drown ourselves in the discussions of who's actually at fault, have we actually considered how fragile friendships can be?
Be it the whole crisis thing or not, sometimes, it takes both parties to create gaps and start filling it with misunderstandings. Then, it's proven many a time that it's a chain reaction. i.e If you expect someone to behave in a certain way, but he doesn't, then is it actually disappointment we feel or misunderstanding that the person doesn't really care at all? Then this will in turn lead to the person expecting, to feel not alright, causing the party he expects, to feel that he's not alright and everything sums up to a whole big misunderstanding and more sadness.

Certain things are better said, while the rest remain unsaid. The point is, it's such a fine line to differentiate these 'certain things'.

That leaves me in despair because i can't differentiate most of the times.


"With everyone caught up in their various pursuits all it takes is for a bit of effort, to spend some time, show some concern, buy a gift, drop a note. love is simply the giving of oneself constantly. for in the end its all about people, people who matter..."
Quoted from Des's blog.

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