I've got too much of twilight and the series rubbing off on me. I've been so addicted to those books like those were my -- personal brand of heroin, as how they put it in the book.
Part of me stopped work for an additional week just to read the books, and at the current rate that i'm devouring, i think 2 days is enough for me to be done with the entire series. I'm already wondering what i'm going to do with the remaining wednesday, thursday and friday by myself home alone. It's stupid telling them that i'm planning to work again -- so much for my indecisiveness. Then again, when i think of the work that i'll be doing, i can almost shut my eyes and wished i was better off lying in bed till late noon.
Human beings tend to be to fickle minded. When i don't have, i crave for it; and when i do have, i take it for granted.
I think i'm living in a different century prefering a different generation of people to be surrounded by. I'm aging much too fast mentally that i think i wouldn't even get married off because my expectations would have long shot through into space, sharing the same frequency with the meteors up there. I don't even know if i would be able to handle the new environment in JC with boys all over again just like in primary school. TKGS had done quite a lot for my growing up years. It might take a little getting used to, i guess.
I've always had this little fantasy of mine - my charming prince sweeping me off my feet and serenading me with a saxaphone on the other hand -- though that would be technically impossible, but what's a dream if there isn't a little bit of impracticality involved?
Monday, January 19, 2009
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
2 whole weeks of anxiety
Remember the last time i went MIA from my blog was on 31st December. It was a bit of a melodrama scene back then. The coming entry would be another melodramatic one.
I've been waiting for the very day, 12th jan, since the start of my life as a sec 4.
The saying goes "Save the best for last", my last year in TK, i graduated feeling the best of all my 10 years education. PSLE was a great disappointment, i really desired a better experience than that 4 years back.
Monday 12th Jan took me on a ride of emotions. The moment i saw my name and results on the screen in the hall, i didn't know whether to feel good or not. It was neither here nor there. It was within my low expectations, yet it did reach my expectations. Then moments later, i thought that was the partial marks already. Then my mood went down from there, i kept mumbling "so lousy" to every soul in the hall.
It was bad enough to watch my closest friends literally trembled and crumbled to the ground, i felt so lousy. It's how friends connect in this special way. We feel too much for each other. I empathised because my top 2 and only JCs that i'd been hoping for flew out the window.
After a couple of hours, when we went for Sakae buffet, only did nel took her envelope out and i saw the L1R5 for myself then i realised that my previous 一场欢喜一场空 was back to 欢喜 again. It was hilarious, i looked at my own silly self and laughed my stupidness away.
The whole thing's finally over. I feel insanely relieved.
I only can't wait for the posting results to be out and to hurry move into my new house and settle down for the bright new year ahead.
Every night i look at sushi and wonder what i'd do without her.
I've been waiting for the very day, 12th jan, since the start of my life as a sec 4.
The saying goes "Save the best for last", my last year in TK, i graduated feeling the best of all my 10 years education. PSLE was a great disappointment, i really desired a better experience than that 4 years back.
Monday 12th Jan took me on a ride of emotions. The moment i saw my name and results on the screen in the hall, i didn't know whether to feel good or not. It was neither here nor there. It was within my low expectations, yet it did reach my expectations. Then moments later, i thought that was the partial marks already. Then my mood went down from there, i kept mumbling "so lousy" to every soul in the hall.
It was bad enough to watch my closest friends literally trembled and crumbled to the ground, i felt so lousy. It's how friends connect in this special way. We feel too much for each other. I empathised because my top 2 and only JCs that i'd been hoping for flew out the window.
After a couple of hours, when we went for Sakae buffet, only did nel took her envelope out and i saw the L1R5 for myself then i realised that my previous 一场欢喜一场空 was back to 欢喜 again. It was hilarious, i looked at my own silly self and laughed my stupidness away.
The whole thing's finally over. I feel insanely relieved.
I only can't wait for the posting results to be out and to hurry move into my new house and settle down for the bright new year ahead.
Every night i look at sushi and wonder what i'd do without her.
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