What Do You Want To Do?

That question keeps coming back to haunt me, over and over.

Sometimes I smile and move on to another topic about what I'm studying, hoping that I've successfully distracted the person who posted the question to honestly believe I've already answered the question, while other times I give a generic answer and share my passion about interior design.

Talking about specialisations, the 4 options laid out there, another prick in the mind, "eh what do you want to spec in?" Honestly, I do know what I don't want to specialise in. Does that leave me with a cancel-all-the options leaving with the one that seems to be the most correct option left?

After a year in Biz, I really keep questioning myself endlessly of what I really want to do. The conflicts of interest never end. There's gotta be something that I really enjoy doing right? Why does it not occur to me yet? After 20 years of my life, I am still... sad to say, aimless. I went one round, so determined to pursue something, thought I figured my life, figured the goals, figured what I wanted, but now, I'm doubting myself if what I really want is still the same. I don't want to be studying aimlessly like that. But I also don't like to give up on things I embark on; the dilemmas in life.

When will I make that turning point?

For one, when the week carries on, I will be too busy with school work to give thought to such a fundamental question. And really, it's quite pathetic to not know where I am going.