Breaking habits

You unknowingly try to grab that bottle in the distance and realise it's not there, a primal instinct to hydrate and the habit of knowing the presence of water is readily available makes people take things for granted.

Just one analogy to prove how i'm trying to break the habit (lucky for me it's a habit, and not an acquired attitude) to cope with the loss of companionship with the effects that's slowly sinking in me. Time heals all wounds, I'm sure it does.

Being busy is a good(may or may not be effective) way to not ponder over unwanted thoughts, yet the capacity of the brain allows for multi-tasking to take place, sadly.

Motions of life

It's this period of gritting my teeth throughout all that I've been doing, knowing i'll see the light at the end of the tunnel. For all the 5km runs up and down the little hills of lucky heights; for the 7km loop run around Bedok and Tanah Merah; for the 90kg log chest presses, bicep curls, shoulder presses and half squats; for the squat thrusts, inclined pull ups, dreaded sit ups and suicide runs; for the endless days of revision till the late of nights; for the rush in meeting of deadlines for numerous EOM drafts, Written Report drafts and OP slides.

One thing that comforts me most is that I know i'm not alone in this journey.

The motivation, inspiration and drive are derived from the stories of highly successful people, and the fact that they have all started with humble backgrounds makes me want to pursue even more

The never ending race with technology

2 weeks back, my enlisting-into-NS brother got an iphone just 2 days before he entered Tekong. My mom, him and me were just shopping for his NS necessities and suddenly we just decided to drop by Starhub and Singtel, before my brother decided he wanted the iphone and we got it on the spot at Singtel without even a day's consideration! Talk about getting things done fast man...

Today, after mom's and my facial appointment (which we had to take a cab down because the army boy decided to use the car for more than 24 hours and decided not to return it for our usage), we had crepes for lunch at Out Of The Pan at raffles city. I wanted to go fairmont for some snow skin mooncakes after that, but realise time was running out cos' i had tuition at 5 back home. Called the army boy again, and this time he's loitering around at Hort Park still refusing to let us use the car, so both my mom and me took the train without buying my snow skin mooncakes!
It's amazing how my mom has never used the public transport system for 20 years and never complimented how much it has changed from the past, only thing she kept going on about was how expensive the bus fares were when we took bus home after that.
So, the tutor called 3 minutes before the time tuition was supposed to start and happily cancelled the class. How responsible.
Luckily we were still at Tamp mall, so decided to get new phones cos' the contracts have all ended quite some time back.

The new baby i'm going to be having with me almost 24/7 for the next 2 years... seriously after all these years, the hype and excitement about getting new things is decreasing drastically maybe cos' i don't really hope for many things to begin with. One thing's that amazing about this is that they finally have a headphone jack. I can plug my own earpiece without connecting all the maze of wires that always come with SE's headpiece.

My mom on the otherhand got a Samsung Omnia II. How times have changed huh. Even the youthful me is struggling with operating the phone... imagine my mom using it! I still like the homely feeling Sony Ericsson's interface gives me. Touch-screen phones are a no-no.

I've been craving snow skin mooncakes this year... unlike every other year. Luckily, we managed to get another box of assorted ones from Bakerzin AGAIN. Wah... my indulgence! I've been snacking on one on a daily basis since the previous box. It's like an addiction. And... i still want to try Fairmont's snowskin mooncakes! :(

The only thing i can't ignore is food cravings... can you even imagine the state i'll be in when i'm actually pregnant? I'll have a chef in the kitchen that is fully stocked with international food whipping up my whims and fancies every hour or so.

The way to the heart

At different phases of life you find certain music that relate and express those unspoken thoughts so accurately... and you just fall in love with them having them played on repeat.

This song has claimed a compartment in my heart for it represents my perception of many things that linger in my mind during those surreal nights with the crickets in the thick bushes echoing through the streets...



Yes, it's one of my rare few cryptic posts.

Especially for myself

I've been doing quite some running these few days because of Titans and in order to improve my weak stamina, I've done some own-time-own-target training at home as well. I realised that I'm quite individualistic when it comes to running. I feel the reverse of what many people feel when running in a group -- usually group-running, we tend to feel more inclined to keep up with the pace and run faster as a result, I don't deny that's usually how I feel as well, but with that motivation there's also this stress that builds up with the fatigue when you try hard to keep up, at least that's for me. The footsteps that echo around me when we run in a group makes me lose my focus and breaks my pace, I really need to work on that for the team event 7km run. Then again, I still prefer some solo running, with just the breeze and my body going through several stages from panting to striding to taking in the sights in the neighbourhood all at the same time. It's really interesting that I feel so aware of my body changes during the entire duration of a run.
I was reading an article yesterday about how scientists want to make a pill that makes running more pleasurable for people. Many couch potatoes are too unmotivated to take the first step to change into their sports attire for a good workout. Wouldn't that be so cool? It'd be like a running-viagra! Tons of people would flood the streets to run then...


I think the education system in Holland is really amazing. 7 years of childhood without any form of exams or rankings! No such thing as top 10 schools, top PSLE pupil, Gifted Education Programme, Integrated Programme etc. They teach important life values like humanity, kindness, caring and sharing(that's why they do away with exams so there is no competition and the little kids do not feel the stress to outwit each other - which is so apparent in Singapore - and they are not self-centered by keeping knowledge to themselves so as to gain the additional edge like in the over-competitive society here) The liberal education system has led to kids growing to become tolerant and accepting individuals that allow them adapt to and communicate with people from all around the world.

To me, the most effective education system is when it has the ability to instill in young learners the motivation to want to find out more on their own i.e. the thirst for knowledge which is seriously lacking in our context and to be compassionate as an individual.
All those talk about well-rounded education in Singapore goes to trash when we look at the children in Holland - no wonder they are ranked the happiest in the world.