Friday, March 28, 2008

Loneliness fills a river of tears

As i travel a long journey home every day after school, i have an ample amount of time to ponder about several things that can't be forgotten by the subconscious mind. It's a non-exhaustive list, from the past to present, right down to the minor details.

I wished i could go back in time, to relive the childhood memories and what i thought of as a happy family. I thought of the times when i used to share a room with my brother, we were very close then, sharing everything from school to crushes and practically everything. If we didn't have to sleep in separate rooms when we shifted, indulging in the abundance of living space, i think the gap between my brother and i wouldn't have widened over the years. If i could rewind, i would rather squeeze in a room with him and talked through the night with the radio on, laughing together and telling each other about our days and friends. If i could spend more time guiding him in the right direction to study more. How we used to share our dreams of going to JC, then to Uni where we would enter together because of the 2 years gap that i would catch up when he serves NS. Things have taken a drastic change. Maybe that's about growing up and having our own lives. I've always admired elder siblings taking care of their younger ones and being a good gorgor/jiejie. Now, i'm only waiting for time to pass...
Is he going to make it or break it?

Then, i thought about my primary school friends. How some of my Seconday friends remind me of them very much. I really missed the innocent times where all we cared about were having fun and teasing each other about our 'new loves'. How everyone loved calling me a tomboy because i was more sporty than some of the boys. If i could tour the school today, i think i'll surely find pieces of my memory lying everywhere cos i left them behind in all places.

I remembered the time when i got chased out of my brother's friend house for not typing something which the mom thought i did. Then i sat outside my own house, key-less with no one at home. I cried and ran to the park. Then sat at the playground and stared till the sky darkened before making my way back to my house at Telok Kurau. Cursing all the way that it was the worst day of my life. I was only Primary 2/3!

And of the many memories in telok kurau, i had much fun playing the playstation when i grew older. And again, all i mixed with were boys and more boys. I play basketball/soccer/playstation/pc games with all my brother's friends. From young, everyone called me javier's sister and didn't seem to mind. But i knew my brother found me a nuisance cos i kept tagging along wherever he went. It was then that i saw how his friends treated their younger siblings with such love that i dreamt of having an older brother like that as well.

Sundays are usually spent at home eating carrot cake/char kuay teow/chee kueh from the market that my parents would always buy back when they went for the week's groceries shopping. Then we would all lie together on the marble floor and watch tv because it was much more cooling. At nights if we were lucky, relatives would come over for the kids to play. From crazy bicycling and screaming to playing with fires. There's nothing we've never done.

There's so many things i really missed and everytime i think about it, all i feel is warmth and love. Tears forcing out of my eyes yet i swallow them in with much difficulty.

It's really been a long time..

Sunday, March 23, 2008

Lord, what fools these mortals be!

Yesterday i caught Vantage Point with Wayne, one word - superb. The movie is incredibly crafted out, even to the minor details.

'Over a twenty-three-minute period, an assassination attempt on the President unfolds. The film loops through this period over and over, each time from the perspective of a different participant, adding a new piece to the larger puzzle with each loop.'

It's simply amazing. Those who have read To Kill A Mockingbird, one of the values they emphasize on was seeing things from someone's point of view. In the movie, the first loop that played gave a rough idea of the assassination of the president and the explosion from the point of view of a cameraman filming for the tv.

The whole plot was very cleverly planned. Who knows, the NSA(National Security Agency) from the USA forsaw that the president would be shot and they sent a double. And they were right on spot. Guess what, the assassins knew they would send a double, and they managed to locate the actual president's location. It was simply a game of wits and life.

The rest of it was outwit, outrun, outlast.


After the movie, we headed to tampines safra for pool. Before that while we were waiting for an empty table, i wanted to play photohunt at the game machine. Just my luck, there were already credits inside!
And we managed to top the top scores. ;)

That night, my pool skills went up by a level. We left the place about 12.30a.m, and i suppose both of us didn't really played enough. SO, we came for part 2 pool the next day.

Some of you may be wondering, why isn't there any photos of me? Well, this big guy doesn't wanna take pics of me cos he don't admire me anymore... xD Hai~
I realised i have a bad habit of saying "wa lao eh~!" everytime the ball doesn't go in. Sheez. If it was Vic, i think the entire game would be "F***!" ... after 2 mins, "F***!" and the cycle goes on.

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Equilibrium

Today was the first day of the chem banding class. First it was going at snail's pace, and now, the new teacher, is going like a bullet train. I was furiously trying to listen and write down whatever's flashed, good thing girls can multi-task. Though that doesn't mean it is 100% effective. I'm going nuts. I really gotta up my gear and start studying physics as well. So stressed from studies that nothing else is of top piriority anymore. I need a life.


People are getting the flu virus and being the kiasu singaporeans, there is a 1 time increase of people taking jabs to strengthen their body against the virus. Everyone needs medicine.

I need laughter for my daily dose...

Sunday, March 16, 2008

Greek Masterpieces from the Lourve

On Saturday, Wayne and i were visitors to the National Museum of Singapore.

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This was his virgin trip, whereas it's my second.
We purchased tickets for all the galleries, and decided to head to the Greek masterpieces first since there was a guided tour at 11am.
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I'll post some amazing highlights of the masterpieces...
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Males in nude sculptures during the classical period were very popular back then, thus the numerous sexy i would say nude "models".
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The female nude sculpture only became popular after some time.
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This is the most handsome dude in Athens.
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And that's Zeus chasing after him.
Apparently a little info about Zeus, he has many affairs with other women, and he even fell for guys. So, i guess he's bisexual.
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These masks were used in performance theatres in Athens. Though i wonder how some really miniature masks are able to fit someone's head.
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Okay, this vase here is one of the most important pieces. From the picture, it's actually a group of men in nude. Basically, the son was fighting against his father for power. It's common for such situations to happen.
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Here shows a death messenger taking a woman away from her lover. It's actually a very sad scene where someone is leaving their loved one.
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This lion statue is a placed at tombs where i suppose it serves the same purpose in Chinese traditions. To guard and chase away the evil spirits.
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This is the the original symbol of Aphrodite.
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That's cupid!
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Ok this boy here is amazingly talented. He is actually sketching free-hand of the statue in the following picture.
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Many people were crowding around him wow-ing away, i don't deny, one of them was me. ;)
Basically, the tour was really informative, but i suppose i forgot half the info already. Which is a very very big pity. I think wayne remembers 70% of it since he's really into Greek mythology.
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Backgammon originated in Greek!
But of course, that isn't the way you play it.


After we exited the Greek masterpieces gallery, we moved on to other galleries in the museum.
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This is the first stone found in Singapore to be crafted with words during the 10-14th century. And i touched it. I've touched something that's close to a thousand years old.
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This was a picture of a magazine "Her World" during the 1960s.
Comparing it to today's Her World.
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That's a studio camera!!
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That's a chinese warrior costume that is very elaborated and expensive used in the past by the Chinese emperors.
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Now we all know where the name HMV came from, "His Master's Voice"
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K that's a chest, apparently the funny thing is, notice there's a talisman?
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That's how chinese funerals were like in the past. Death was regarded as important as it was the person going into another world.

Okay, aside from all the artefacts and historical past of Singapore, the museum is a really cool place.
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The many saucers, spoons, bowls and etc are stuck onto the wall by magnets. Cool eh?
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Process of acting stupid...
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K enough of acting stupid, the overhead lights were actually in motion.
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The next horror movie production.
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THIS very large statue of David (& the Goliath), stands at 2 storeys high.
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He's the man.

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And we are the lovelys.

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Smorty!

Having read many bloggers' blogs of how they are earning a lot of revenue just by blogging, it's a bit tempting for me. It sounds like easy money; sitting in the comfort of my home, shake leg, use a bit of brain and start posting. As i was googling on blog advertising and campaining ads, i came upon Smorty. I think it's really simple to start from Smorty. Firstly, all you need is just to register with their site, then add your blog and wait for approval. That's it. My blog was approved in less than a day. This is a baby step to the start of my earning $ by blogging. Hopefully i'm going somewhere with this.

Since i'm really new to Smorty's, basically what i know of is we get paid for blogging, as well as advertising on our blogs.

The highlight of this whole thing is i'm simply amazed that there are 6 new tasks to do once your blog is approved. Each task has a payout of $6. I suppose different tasks have varying amounts of payouts.

Well, who knows?

Earn $ during your leisure time on the computer, isn't that easy? ;)
get paid for blogging

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Belle's partayyeee

I can't believe belle's parents fetched me in the morning to the chalet, and sent me back to my place in the night. Feel so paiseh. Today i learned loads of things.

1. Learned to play taboo. and realised i'm pretty good at it too. *wide grin*
2. Learned to play mahjong.
3. Learned that Vic thinks i'm allergic to hot air thus the staying indoors all the time refusing to leave my mahjong seat to go bbq some food for myself; which in actual fact i was cutting down cos of my really sexy manly voice right now.
4. Learned that pool can only be played indoors air-conditioned. cos all the time the friction of my hand with the cue stick was so hard to ignore that it affected the play.
5. Learned that photo-hunt can only be played with multi-players i.e everyone crowding around a small machine. cos with Vic and me at the starting we practically lost the game so pathetically. Ha ha ha~
6. Home Team NS chalets are freaky, big, creepy and eerie, dirty but not dirty, get the drift... need i say more?
7. I can't believe i'm as biantai as belle, or worse.....

Early happy birthday to you belle!(i'm contradicting myself when i call her a belle)

Monday, March 10, 2008

In love letters. 'i miss you' is used more often than 'i love you'...

Today we went to watch 10 000 BC. Initially i discounted the movie and had in mind that it would be a hunt here hunt there caveman movie, but it wasn't. I think it brought out some of the myths and legends that live on till today which we never really bother to find out.
I'll just recall some snippets that are worth mentioning.

It was a time travel back to past where human beings solely relied on hunting for food and survival. How tribes were like and the different cultures and traditions, which i suppose are our religions today. All the cavemen regarded an Egyptian king as the mountain of gods. Basically being a god, he was higher than everyone else. At the end of the movie where a normal caveman ended his reign by throwing a spear proved that gods did not exist and all men were equal with no one being superior or having magical powers.

It also showed how travelers in the past relied on the north star to travel at night because one of the tribe leaders said it was a no man's feat to be able to cross the sea of sand a.k.a desert. The main starring actor, don't know his name >.<,realised that a star in the sky is always constant and doesn't move. Because of the fact that everywhere in the desert looks the same, no one managed to get out alive, spending half the time walking around in circles and the scarcity of food and water made it worse.

Besides that, the first ships that were being made were called 'birds'. I think that part was hilarious. And, when people used horses to travel, other cavemen that relied on foot all the time thought they had wings to fly because of their accelerated speed to travel from a place to another.

The most amazing of all was the building of the pyramid in Eygpt. It was a spectacular sight. I wonder how the director managed to piece the whole thing up with at least millions of people working on the the structure of the pyramid. Simply a wow factor for the entire movie.

The part where human beings are actually connected spiritually is also showed as well. When the group of hunters left the tribe to free their men, the lady head chief of the tribe blessed them by spitting saliva on them. And throughout, she watched over their journey, feeling every single emotion and seeing what they see. Her body even mimicked the functions of their bodies. It reminds me of some stories i've read where siblings(twins especially)/parent-child share this kinda telepathy to feel how the other party feel.

Looking at how people led their lives in the past and comparing to the present, we're actually very much complicated creatures now. It's really amazing how the world has developed, and continues to thrive.

Those interested in the history of the start of civilization, this is definitely a good movie to catch.

It is a fragile thread that binds us together, so handle it with care

The week ended in a flash. It's the march holidays, which i've planned to use to study my sec 3 syllabus. How guai, i know. ;)

To sum up the week, it's been much of psp-djmaxing after school, napping, eating, and a short study time allocated in the night to finish up the homework and some revision. Kinda slack for the last week of first term. I've gotten back most of my results(except for an A-math paper which i suppose only our class hasn't gotten back, sheeez~) for this term, slightly below my expectations but improvements from last year. Mostly Bs which is a good step to getting my As.

My goals are changed slightly due to i-have-no-idea-what-reasons. I'm aiming to go VJC after my Os. Cut off point currently stands at 4, i think. Gotta work really hard. I am suddenly so motivated to study.

I just came back from a wedding dinner at furama city centre. I think it's really unique and not as boring as those i've attended in the past with the standard dinner and yum-seng. Firstly for this, the english emcee cannot make it. His sense of humour is so casual and not up to standard for such a big occasion. Other than that, if it wasn't so formal, perhaps he tried really hard to lighten the atmosphere by injecting loads of humour. When the bride and groom came through the doors, the groom had to carry the bride down the aisle and up the stage. Then came a half-time performance where the groom was blind-folded and he had to differentiate whom his wife was among 4 ladies. That took up quite some time, the dinner ended pretty late, around 11p.m. The best thing i like about wedding dinners is the powerpoint slides/video from the start of their courtship till becoming newly-weds. It's amazing how love blossoms.
Today, one of wayne's friend guessed i'm 20/21! -speechless-

After the dinner, we went down to changi airport to pick wayne's parents. During the journey there in my mom's car, the cockcroach man squashed a tiny cockcroach. On the way back home, a bigger cockcroach appeared and he managed to kill it. Exciting car ride, yeah right. My fear for cockcroaches just increased in the Ritcher scale.


Yesterday, we went to the IT show at suntec. He bought a printer and 2.1 speakers. The highlight of the whole trip down was just the wayne-touching-guys'-asses part. No, don't be mistaken. Due to the people mountain people sea crowd, some people accidentally brushed past my ass twice. Feeling unsatisfied and playful, i took his hand and touched guys' asses as we walked along. *evil laughter* Who said guys' asses can't be touched?
After all this guy-girl discrimination where guys love to ogle at girls and check them out, i came up with the theory that whatever a guy does normally, a girl is entitled to the exact same rights. For example, guys check girls' asses/boobs/faces/body etc, girls are fully given the right to look at other guys' asses/dick/faces/body as well, even if they are with their partners. ;)
That's only just fair right girls? Bwahahaha...

Tuesday, March 04, 2008

And maybe someday we'll talk and not just speak...

Lit today was hilarious. I spent half the time laughing at Claire because of her predicting Vic's future life. Apparently Vic wants Claire to be her future housemate, but Claire spoke right through that she'd eventually just be a housemaid rather than her mate. If Claire wants to play golf, she has to ask Vic first and the latter would ask her to mop the floor. Then if Vic decides to bring home her sex and makes out in the room, she would shout for Claire to turn off the lights. It was damn funny with Vic pinching Claire throughout.
The fun doesn't stop there, when we went out of the IT resource room, Vic whacked Claire's boobs with her bottle really hardly. Claire was shouting like crazy "I swear i'm gonna pinch your nipples until they swell so huge they drop off." Something along that line, i couldn't stop myself from lmao.

Besides that, i was late for school again. I swear everytime i just wanna shoot the cars on the PIE for driving so freaking slowly. And, the funny thing is when my mom wakes up early, she will leave house at 7.01am. When she wakes up late, she will still leave house at the same time. Reason?

"I thought wake up early so can MMM (man man mo)... then when wake up late, have to rush like crazy."

OMG -.-

No wonder i'm always late. Sigh. Seriously, it's a stupid reason to get scolded by teachers. I'm fault-less except the stupid fact that i'm always late!

Sunday, March 02, 2008

It's better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all...

So much things have happened recently in the class. I've never expected it to escalate to our current state. Frankly i don't have much opinions on whatever that's happening, and it's not that i don't care, but i think it's just a phase. At the end of this year, all of us are just going to move on with our lives. Feb 2008 will become a past. 2008's the first year i received so many scoldings/naggings/lectures from miss tee. I'm developing a phobia. Sometimes i really want to understand what's on her mind.

Does the problem lie with the teachers or is it just a blatant lack of effort from us? Firstly, the deteriorating results and unmotivated learning in class sparked from when? I don't know... I think Mrs Cheong is really much better than Miss Chan, and we are taking advantage of her lenient-ness. Other than that, i think without an a-math tutor, i can expect F9 for every single test cos she seriously cannot.make.it.

In 3 words, i can sum up everything i've learnt about life: it goes on.