Saturday, May 31, 2008

31st May 2008

While i've been catching 变奏曲,Rhythm of Life on channel 8 every 9p.m., it made me think about how life just goes on with everyone immersed in their own world.

Given the first chance to go along with his heart and make any choices without caring about anyone else, the girl whom has been all alongside him, being the one for him. He doesn't realise it until she dies. When he woke up, it was all a dream, a dream that he had stepped into a world ahead of time. 2 years ahead to be exact. He rushed to save the girl from the moment that she was going to die. He was given a second chance to make the right decisions in his life. Until the final episode, he screwed everything up all over again.

What if second chances don't mean to exist at all? In the end, every action leads to drastic consequences. No matter how hard he tried, it didn't work out. Maybe it was meant to have such an ending. He lost the girl he loved, he broke another's heart. He was left with nothing.


And, today, i left the deepest regret in my entire life.
I don't even deserve a second chance at all.

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Peeing in fun

Today was the first day of the supplementary lessons. I didn't tell mommy that school actually starts at 8a.m, later by half an hour, so that i could be on time for once. Kekeke...

We left house at 7.15a.m and reached school at 7.30a.m due to really smooth flowing traffic. Usually i take 25 mins to travel to school.
My mom was going on about:

"See la, holidays no parents need to fetch kids to school, whole road so empty. Parents work so hard for kids, wake up so early just to send kids to school. Tsk tsk... or else all wake up at 8/9plus to rush to work."

In school during recess, as Elaina and i decided to go to the toilet on the 4th level at the classroom block. We got the shock of our lives.

What the hell happened to the toilet doors?!?!
















Ruby wanted to be in the photo with the very mature-looking toilet doors.















I thought at least this made some sense, something that ought to appear in a toilet in a really creative way.















But i simply don't understand what "Stripes look best on me!" has got anything to do with the toilet/ the toilet door/keeping the toilet clean.

Someone care to enlighten?


And, last night, Wayne went nuts, started talking to himself on MSN.


I'm speechless.

Monday, May 26, 2008

National Runway Cycling and Skating

25th May 08, 1a.m
Wayne: Hey i'll be waking up around 5/6 a.m then i'll call you.
Me: Okay.

25th May 08, 7a.m
My phone alarm rang. I looked at the time sleepily, it was 7a.m. No phone calls, no messages.

7.15 a.m - My alarm rang again, i woke up and looked at the time. Great, it's 7.15a.m Almost time to get out of bed.

After every 5 mins or so, i just kept getting up to snooze my alarm while waiting for him to call me.

8 a.m - I called him. Appears he just got woken up by my phone call.

8.05 a.m - Belle called to say she was there.

8.21 a.m - Belle says she's starting already.

8.30 a.m - Finally Wayne comes over and we went down.

Note: The event actually started at 7.30 a.m.

The power of a man's man man mo behaviour.
How can a guy be slower than a girl! Sometimes i wonder if i'm actually a guy disguised.

Anyway, the runway skate was awesome.

We had an abundance of runway to skate on and there seemed to be no limits nor boundaries. I can even see the skyline from here.


This was somewhere around 10km.

Wayne and i covered a total of 15km on skates. Belle and i met Miss Tee, her husband and her nephews. I saw how motherly she was to her nephews, she isn't that fierce after all to kids(maybe we students, aren't kids to her). Last year we met Cyndi, our OBS instructor. Every year we meet different people. So fun hor?

I wanted to eat Mcgriddles breakfast after the skate, but couldn't make it in time because someone loved man man mo-ing. Ended up eating crayfish ramen at Ajisen's which wasn't that bad either, my favourite dish there.

School holidays have officially started. But don't even think about holidays because TKGS is being overly kiasu, the Sec 4s have supplementary lessons from 0800-1330 for 2 more weeks.

My relatives from the U.S are coming over on June 8th. I can't wait!

Saturday, May 24, 2008

The shock of my life

Anyone would have died from all kinds of shock there is known to humans when they see this amount of unique visitors compared to my usual small amount of loyal readers. Now i know the "secret" to attracting readers.

Let me get a grip on something firm while i let the shocking revelation sink in.

Okay, now let's drink to our heart's content....

I'm just kidding.


Today is a really mentally + physically draining day. I had much difficulty crawling out of bed this morning because i was too active in my lala-land; which sucks cos' i had tuition and that requires much of my attention. Half of it was gone because of the lack of sleep, or rather an excess of it.

After tuition, i went to rebond my hair. I know a lot of guys like girls with perfect straight and silky hair, but they never know the process could be so torturous. I think the entire process took about 2-3 hours. And throughout i was never given the chance to rest my straining neck from keeping my head up. My hair basically went through a difficult period getting chemicals into the scalp, wrapped, washed, blowed dry, heated, chemicals again, pulled, tugged, washed, blowed-dry and finally getting trimmed. What a fun time for the hair and my neck hanging on to
its dear life. I thought it was gonna drop halfway. That was how physically tiring it was.
I was never happier once the treatment was done.

Tomorrow's the runway skate. I need my sleep badly.

Thursday, May 22, 2008

What makes a good leader

Today was an extremely humid day, i was soaked through at the back from after recess. It has always been this way since god-knows-when. Everyone's perishing in this hellish heat.

We had photo-taking today. While i was watching 4/8 get their photos taken, a picture of an old photograph came into my mind. Like in movies, when you are much older and start flipping through the old photos that have long turned yellowish, it really brings back many memories. I sort of took a snapshot of the scene in my mind and imagined how i would remember it decades later when i look at my school photos. Ahh, time never waits for anyone.

After that, we had the debate finals in the hall during assembly. One of the judges was Mrs Lim, the principal. Ms Terry(VP) gave up her seat to Mrs Lim after she was kinda interested in what's going on. However, many of us students caught Mrs Lim almost dozing off and looking half-bored and uninterested in what was going on in the debate. She was just staring into thin air with a really blank look.

I don't suppose you call that a good example of being a good leader who listens a lot, she rather preferred to be listened to.

A good leader encompasses the skills of being a good public-speaker, having good management of the staff and students, and be caring towards the general well-being of the entire school community.

With a really non-enthusiastic voice that seems dreamy and floaty, she seems more to be mumbling to herself in lala-land. A good speaker needs to be firm and strong in her speeches. I wouldn't like to elaborate the rest. But today i really feel the need to speak up. With a very bad posture, i.e slouching and resting head on table or leaning head on palm whilst judging, what kind of message is she trying to convey to the rest? If that isn't bad enough, when the debate was open to the audience, she eyed Steph who was limping up to the mic, as if Steph was some diseased person incapable of doing anything. When Vanessa was speaking, she looked disgusted. However silly or imperfect any student might be, a person(i'm not even talking about a principal here) should not view him differently. All of us are perfectly sane human beings, having the full capability to think. I was simply disgusted by such unpleasant disposition.


Today i was reading the papers, one article 'Doctor caught having sex in clinic' in the Straits Times caught my attention because i read another forum article that was related to 'Why men stray?'
In the article after his affair was being exposed he said, " I was afraid as i wanted to save my marriage and reputation by not having the pictures and video out there in public or on Youtube." The affair had been going on since 2000.

"As for men who blame biology and Mother Nature for their infidelity, and like monkeys, are unable to control their irresponsible urges, i suggest we lock them in a zoo as their animal instincts are stronger than their human sense of duty and responsibilty."

I doubt men and monkey looks the same, right?

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Another part of my life

The Samsung inline skating festival is coming soon in June. It's been my 3rd year being so into skating and i have not attended the samsung event even for once! I was thinking of how big a loser i am. The skating scene used to be so hot and crowded with many 老教 teaching me and newbies trying to pick up the sport(whom i would teach if i feel kind).

That's me doing a toe-stall

I missed the times when i was quite known for being the girl who slaloms very well, and dons the pink laces Seba skates. I have never fancied the colour pink though. I still remembered everyone used to say Seba skates are the most-time-consuming-skates to put on. Then a fellow skater helped me laced my skates up and gave me those laces, which reduced a whole load of time needed for me to buckle up before i roll along.

My pair of skates have been demoted from a freestyle heavy-duty to a leisure kept-in-storeroom-to-collect-dust.

Each accessory on my pair or skates marks some occasion or just some others for memory's keepsake of my party-on-skates days.
I miss those days...

Monday, May 19, 2008

Doing some little thinking

Today is a good Vesak Day. Since i'm not a Buddhist, my mom and i took the opportunity to view houses around Katong area, to be more specific, Marine Parade. This is my first time viewing various HDB point block units, and i realised, they all share the same layout and built-in area. Unlike the hunt for landed property some years back, every house we view was pretty similar. HDB flats are pretty limited on the choice of exterior and layout.
Then, i came across one of the blocks, it had a CCTV at the first floor of both the lifts there. It was like those service apartments overseas that allow security guards to monitor the lifts while it was on the move. I thought it was pretty cool. Imagine people doing funny stuffs in the lifts and being caught on camera, with the video playing live at the first floor for all to see. Heh heh heh...

I'm salivating already, aren't you?

Saturday, May 17, 2008

Practically vomiting loads of blood.

The mid year results are back! Guess what? I haven't gotten anything close to an A and my L1R5 this term is so far from below 20. I am laughing my ass off. I think my head's in my ass as well. That's what made my mid year results suck so much.

My god, unbelievable results. Till now, i'm still suffering from the trauma of how bad my mid-year results are. Everything's still the same, except i am still on a streak of failing my Chemistry.

Good job girl, good job.

Just to cheer myself up.




Sunday, May 11, 2008

I need help.

I feel i have lost a part of me gradually. I don't feel being all me, it's as if i'm behind a facade somehow in a way or another. I'm searching for that comfort and the freedom to fully express myself well. What i need isn't a personal diary, nor a pen to jot my thoughts from time to time; but companionship that creates lasting memories. I know i have to take control of my own life, but somehow, something is eating my heart up, not because i don't want to do something, but because i don't know the way to deal with it. I'm avoiding, yet indulging myself in denial that everything's gonna be alright and pieces will fall into place as long as i leave it at that.

Somehow i always come into these junctures feeling lost, seeing no light in a dark tunnel.

I need a guardian angel to guide me through at times like this.


It's a lovely mother's day, by the way.

Tuesday, May 06, 2008

New love



Isn't this just so romantic and lovely, i wanna learn the saxophone~

Music translates unspoken words and thoughts.

Thursday, May 01, 2008

Fundamental Attribution Error

Defined as "the tendency for people to over-emphasize dispositional, or personality-based, explanations for behaviors observed in others while under-emphasizing situational explanations. In other words, people have an unjustified tendency to assume that a person's actions depend on what 'kind' of person that person is rather than on the social and environmental forces influencing the person."

Always cut people slack; always assume that their irritability, or unfriendliness, or absent-mindedness, neither reflects their true nature nor has anything to do with me. In brief, don't take things personally.
-Happiness Project

This can happen most of the times, while like quoted in The Happiness Project:
I assume that the guy in the drugstore is an inconsiderate jerk because he rushed ahead of me to get to the counter, when in fact, he’s very considerate, and he’s rushing to get home with the medicine for his sick girlfriend.

What about the rest of times when we are actually doing something that is not affected by our surroundings but more of our prejudices or impressions that were created before? Is it forgivable?

Having survived without a maid for 2 weeks now, i don't know if i should say i'm doing well without one. When i was younger and without a maid, i always thought to myself "why am i always doing this..." but as i grow older, i've started to assume responsibilities and never felt the same as before. I thought it was the right thing to do, to do my part as a family member living in the household. It's pathetically sad that my brother doesn't feel the same way. Though there's nothing i can do about that, i really wished that he would put in a little more effort in creating more happiness and living in a happy environment.

It really hurts me a lot when i've always try to make the house a home, and i don't get appreciated for my efforts. Times like this, i could just cry myself to sleep, yet only to wake up the next day feeling the pain in my heart fading. Surely, time can heal all wounds.

Sometimes i wonder, does everybody feel that someone whom you are closest to have the highest tendency to inflict such emotional pain...?